10am

i wouldnt normally accept calls from people only next door-

bt i sayang my flatmates :D

even though they get angry and break windows

this evening we had secret santa! + lots of snacks and goodies

gemma made that for nat.legend.

then eddie came for a (very) little while..

my boyfriend is a dodo head.

he annoys me,that boy.he does.

and i know it doesnt make sense,i know it might seem like the silliest idea in the world..

Four Years Together..apart.

but edward does make me the Happiest girl and im very glad We're Us.

going back

this is nathaniel.

nat walked me to the Student's Union despite being half-crippled,

and then waited with me until the bus came.

gem painted my nails and i borrowed dan's student card

i have the loveliest flatmates :)

the Xmas Law Ball could have been better.but it was Alright.

oh oh i finally met another Edward -

and this time,hes Actually English

Asian boys with English names are just a big disgrace to their identity.

no offence,but i fell in love with Brian Friel's 'Translations',so you really you cant blame me.

i have the happiest days here,

the friendliest flatmates,

the yummiest chocolates,

the cleanest streets,

but i really miss home.

owwhh,i cant wait to be back.

i procrastinate a lot

cool candlelight Christmas carol concert at Christ Church,Clifton

:D

My first carol concert!

dreidel from Nat,the Jewish flatmate.

grr.my workload actually Annoys me.

kiasu

went shopping with mel again today despite the fact that i still have so much of work to do,thats its becoming quite Unfair.

but ive decided that if i do reasonably well for my first year,im going to take an English Literature Module for that one optional unit i have.you know,to treat myself.this is very good motivation.

anyway,last night's panto soc's xmas production (Treasure Island) was Absolutely Wicked. better than any klpac production i have ever seen.

pia dragged joanne and i ALL THE WAY to the Habourside

godknowswhy

after which,we had to WALK HER HOME IN THE RAIN

bt what can i say,we're Such Good Friends

pia's flat is Too Neat.theres seriously something wrong with it. they dont share spoons or forks or pans or anything much. theres no cans of beer,no bottles of vodka..no dirty tea towel lying on the floor..everything is organized,tidy,clean...

suits Pia very well though but i personally enjoy a bit of mess.

when theres a mess,then theres cleaning up.and that feeling after cleaning up a big mess with ur flatmates is Wow.and when theres a lot to clean up,it takes up a lot of time-PERFECT excuse to procrastinate on that bloody tort essay.

HAVENT HEARD FROM THIS BOY SINCE HE TOUCHED DOWN IN LONDON.

i dont understand boys.you tell them "have a good time but be contactable and keep me updated,alright?" but they somehow understand that to be "switch off your phone.dont call me.dont text me.make me worry,alright?"

Seriously.boys are stupid.

bt saying that,i really really hope he comes to bristol .finally someone to show around-

"this is the Clifton Suspension Bridge people tend to take pictures of even though it really is just another bride"

or

"this is Wills Memorial.this is where i study.I study at Wills memorial.Wills memorial is the sex.my tutorial room ..which is in Wills memorial has a fireplace. I love Wills memorial-i study there"

whats up doc

missed out on the goldney xmas ball ;(

baked bread and butter pudding for my flatmates :)

just one of those random nights..

it was my first attempt though.probably why mike asked ,

"Is this like a Malaysian version?"

:D HAHAHA good times good times

but awwwhhh,as much as i love it here.cant wait till CHRISTMAS!!

today,i saw a Red VW Beetle while walking back home

and i swear,that made me So Homesick.

i had this image of myself going in and sitting beside my mom saying, "Lets Go Home"

hungry

im still such an Elizabeth Bennet.i dont know if thats a good thing or not.

when im not staring at my casebook..

im cutting out paper snowflakes

because no matter where you are, life can get Boring.

secret santa

Law Parenting Social .

absolutely Trolleyed.

definitely Not Proud of myself.

Bad Hangover,

bt to be fair,it was a good night.

i think it was jack's (2nd yr lawyer)place we went to first.

after which was Roo Bar,then The Ranch and then Bunker.

thats Emma,my "sister".we're in the same law&state seminar.

our family shot-Tom,Emma,LiSha,Izzy

i Swear i wasnt smashed.its just a very bad picture.

PIAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA !!!! :D

(jack gave me his shirt to wear on the way to the club)

oh and SOON IT WILL BE CHRISTMAS.it feel so Good here-the thought of xmas (even toh i know mine will be spent in hot,humid kl) is much more ..Real because of the Cold and the enthusiastic Christmas Decorations everywhere.

finally bought myself a winter coat.

took melissa and i around 4 hours or more to search for the perfect coat .

both ended up buying the first coat we saw.

ive tons of essays to complete.bahhhhhhhhhh.

i miss F4 :( My college girlfriends.

happy birthday edward!

You're 19 !

..and im having a rough hangover.

oh,we're growing up.from childish texts to big-ass responsibilities.

but through it all-the frustrations,the joys,the agony,the stress..

dont stop chasing your dreams,love.they wont run too far from you.

will always be there for u

because i love you very much.

rambles

you cant have love,without hate.

which makes love a funny thing,but not funny enough to really make you laugh.

mothers,for instance,can love their sons So Much,that they end up Hating the girlfriends.

Hating the one thing(besides playstation and football)that makes their sons feel like Wow.

usually its not because the girlfriend is a bad person who plans to take over the world,

but its usually because of Love.

and that makes it a Funny thing,doesnt it?

why would you Hate something your son Loves?

wouldnt you Love the fact that he..Loves?

oh,Love.You're so Difficult.

hes all grown up now and she really cannot accept that.

after that first step he took,he just kept walking further and further away from her.

there was a time when he would grab her hand in a crowded room of strangers-afraid,lost and scared;he always knew there was mommy.

but now,hes usually across the room,rolling his eyes at her.

shes getting old.shes losing it.losing her charm,losing her control,losing what meant to her the most.

it must be frighftul. one day hes teasing all the girls in class,the next day hes flirting around with one particular Girl.

and then four years later,its still this particular Girl.

theres going to be a time when he would grab her hand in a crowded room of strangers-afraid,lost and scared;he knows the Girl will always be there

now,hes usually across the room,skyping with her

this Girl is only getting younger.she has it all.she has the charm,she has control,she has what means the most to her.

so she shouts at her son.she screams at him for being on the phone for too long with the girl.she tells him again and again,to stop it,to end it.she clenches her fist,cursing at the girl because shes done everything wrong- "you're talking to the person i dont like" she says loudly when hes on the phone,hoping hed do something about it,do something for her,instead of for the Girl.

shes not the Girl she wants for him.shes not the Girl.she Wont be the Girl..

..that takes him away from her

but again ,when theres Hate,

theres also Love.

"You can take the train to Bristol to see her"

she cant have him with her all the time anymore,cant have him agree with her anymore,cant make him do what she wants him to do anymore..but at least she can make him happy.

ITS BEEN 8 WEEKS.

had trifle for the first time- anwen's flat dinner; dessert

and the other day,i had some black pudding

bit by bit,i swear my flat mates are helping me evolve into becoming more English than i really should.

but Naahhh,nothing beats pisang goreng (goreng pisang?) or nasi lemak or roti canai or nescafe ais or char kuih teow or chicken rice ..

Negaraku.

ahhh,that phrase never felt so good before.

three more weeks.

balik kampung..oh oh oh balik kampung :)

how's kl ?

last Night,we went out in our sunnies to buy ingredients for our Sainsbury's Recipe at Tesco's.

chicken stuffed with brie cheese and cranberry sauce,wrapped with courgettes

yummmy ;D

and then of course,dessert from Tesco's Finest.

then a random group of us went to the Corrie Tap.

Gemma evolved into really lightweight -drunk after 2pints.

Haha! but it was a good night.

good times,good times.

but good times have to end :

ive been flipping through the pages of my text book,going through all my notes and trying (very,very hard) to remember what was taught during my Law&State seminar,but its been nearly 2 hours now (or more-probably more) and i still cant get started on my essay.

i cant answer the question.ive gone blank.ive started to worry- i cant tell my tutor that i need more time nor can i say "i forgot to bring my homework la,miss.sorry sorry,can bring tomorrow or not ah?"

ive had two cups of coffee,a cuppa tea,one magical mug of hot chocolate,a cold shower,a cat nap-but im still Restless and Sleepy and Tired.

I Hate Public Law.

its like Chemistry (dull,complex,not relevant to real life)

only this time if i fail..it would affect my other grades.

Its so dumb,really.ive got to touch on the European Union.IM ASIAN FOR GOD'S SAKE.grumble

the lady doth protest too much,methinks.

toffee nut latte -mmm!

back in wms,we had these trees

we called them "the trees with seasons"

because the green leaves would change into a lovely orange-yellow colour,and then into a dark red-brown colour.

i dont recall the leaves falling down though.i dont remember having trees without any leaves.

its quite depressing.life needs more colour.

pia and i had some perry today

regent st.

princess victoria st-where i do my grocery shopping,and where i spend a good time searching for a good book at Oxfam.

i just found out that one of the songs on my blog,is the song thats played during the credits of 500 Days Of Summer.

ben&jerrys-vodka coke

mat's parents brought us Xmas Gifts !

yayyyyyyyyy!

VICTORIA ROOMS-Music Department

Art Gallery

THERE WAS SUN TODAY!!!!!!!!

do you remember,when we were pushed around by the prefects to line up at the basketball court three times a day?-morning assembly,after break time,after lunch time.

do you remember how we would Whine and Grumble and Swear and Scream about how we Hated the Bloody Sun. OHMYGOD ITS SO HOT !

we worried about sweat stains,complained about migraines.

when the rain came,we rejoiced.we ran straight into the court-chased each other,giggled,smiled.the cool wind blowing against our faces after a tiresome day in class.

do you remember how we loved that?

well,Mr.Sun is my best friend now.when i wake up and see a little ray of sunshine outside my balcony,i rush into the kitchen for a better view.oh, the joy of warmth and brightness!theres Sun! theres Sun !

and i could very well do without Mr.Rain..without having to worry about getting my books wet or whether ive packed my brolly . i abhor the little drops of water that Keep falling from the grey,gloomy sky .

its funny isnt it,how things change

One day,you hate something.

the next day,you love it.

you dont really miss something until you leave it-its true.