like rojak

a dog came to us.

so anyone,missing puppy? let me know.

maybe im going mad.and i calculate out loud.

i cant take stats 2,have finally decided what units to retake when and is currently working on my personal statement.

its been an eventful friday.i love fridays.mei is coming over for the second time soon.we're having lamb.i feel hungry.

and i miss the buss too ,chyi. i miss the girls and how things were. i miss a lot of things. and people .

sometimes i wish for stupid things. its getting dark.its nearly night time. there are never stars in kl. kit yoong believed mr.jp when he said that once in every 200 years,the moon splits into two.

my name is lisha and im nearly seventeen.

i hate how hes so far away and all that comes with it.hate it with my life and everything else i have.

if i hate guys,does that make me a sexist? what if ..i hate guys sometimes?

no that makes u a girl

that tag u have there

1 ) Are you allowed to have a bf/gf?
yes.bt not encouraged to.at all
"you and edward so weird la"

2 ) Describe urself in one word.
jealous

3 ) Who would you pick, someone who really loves you, or the one you love?
the one i love .omfg do some people really Enjoy asking pathetic questions?

4 ) Have you ever loved someone BEFORE but never had the courage to tell him/her?
i love you edward and im not afraid to say so.

5 ) Does it feel good to love?
i would say so! bt.not.All.the.time.

6 ) God is giving u just 5 more minutes before going back to heaven, IF you love someone special what will you say to that person?
depends how i died. and "if u want to fall in love again,make sure shes not as pretty"

7) What will you say to someone who doesn't want to believe you??
it depends who im talking to.

8 ) Was ever a time that you tried to learn to love someone?
Of course.bt i wouldnt say love,as in the romantic aspect of it.

9 ) What' your opinion about someone who's jealous?
someone i can relate to.hoorah.dont u wish the world gave you more of your way sometimes?and ur not asking for anything more than u already have.u just want things corrected.

10 ) What can you say about playboys/playgirls?
nothing.

[[ * PART 2 * ]]

1 ) Best place to cry?
theres a best place to cry? i dont want to say it.its too corny.

2 ) Who do you love the most?
God.family.eu shang.

3 ) Tell us your dream last night?
No.i cant remember it.

4) Ever hated someone so bad?
i can hate with every cell in my body.except maybe one.

5 ) The biggest & most hurtful lie you heard?
and im to share it with the world,am i.

The last person-you had a beer with? ..i dnt know.friends?

-went to the movies with? family

-talked on the cell phone with? edward

-u hugged? erm.dno.

-u yelled at? i wish not to remember.so i dont.

~Kissed ? i wonder.

Danced crazy?when noone was looking !

Think of the last time u were angry, why were u angry?
because of my silent pride.

If you could do anything OR wish anything, what would it be?
to live happily ever after

If you could have an all expense paid trip, where will you go?
everywhere i can.

Would you or have you ever blackmailed someone?
i dnt think so.

Are you old fashioned?
sometimes.

What would be harder for you, to tell someone you love them or that you do not love them back?
ive better things to think about

What things would be the hardest thing for you to give up on?

Thing,as in Benda? an Object? im not quite sure.i dont have an attachment to things. theres always this crazy hope that when i do give something up,i'll get it back somehow or get something better or forget about it.

bt if anything,it would be the couple of boxes i have.where in it i have all the letters from friends,cards,and things which mean so much by just looking at .

5 Facts About Me:

sometimes,i love to hope.

i love reading.

im fickle,very indecisive

i love animals

bt im not responsible enough to take care of any



5 things that scares me

-losing ..people i love

-fishes

-blood..veins..eiihsf kgshd

-failure and exams and rejection and discrimination



7 Songs Playing in My Head

how do u play seven songs in ur head at the same time.



5 Things I treasure in My Life

what Sort of Thing?

how about clouds,cos ive a strange attraction towards clouds,and rain and trees.

is happiness and hope a Thing?

my books,my box of memories and photographs are things.



7 "First Time" in My Life

..i dont know how deli answered this.i dont get it.



.7 Words/Things I Always Use/Say

-fuck

-shit

-omg

-like

-mmnnngrrrrhhhhh

-please and thank you.

aand i tag..anyone who wants to do this.

king lotonton

i love rain.i love to stand out there and feel the chill and the breeze and the drops of rain tickling my senses.and i love water.i love the smell of fresh water and the sounds of the waterfall and the splashes you get by the river.i love how water flows,how it moves.i love stepping into a small pond of water and waddling my feet in it,stretching my toes and feeling so free,so cool,so calm.i love showers and the feel of water rushing down my body.i love the sea,i love the salty taste and the crashing of the waves.
water is exciting.

but im scared of swimming and im terrified of fishes and sometimes i still picture the pale,lifeless of body of that girl who drowned in titanic.




did jesus have a favourite colour ?
did he sleep on his side or on his back?

i have not studied today.i think books distract me sometimes.i cant let it down.then i finish it.and spend too many hours thinking about it and reading more about it.and then i pick up another book,and the same cycle repeats.but books are how i escape.i dont know what im actually escaping from since i think we find more misery from books.more misery,madness,death,heartbreaks.. i love reading.and reading more.A library is a hospital for the mind. that,and an asylum. i think i want both.
bt its still better than how life is now,mundane.and i rather read these books than "exchange and transport,energy and the ecosystem".i wish these books were my studies.

maybe if i had superpowers like spider man i could just shoot out cobwebs from the tip of my fingers and swing around new york..then that would be my escape.BUT,im not spider man

lalalala.stop ranting sha. u talk gibberish all the time.

I want to kill you and watch you turn into a thousand butterflies that vanish.not fly away,bt vanish completely.gone forever.

an’ woone smile mwore.

boo is in hk

i want to go to disneyland to count the hidden mickeys.i will sit on the dumbo ride and jump inside the teacups.spin and spin and spin.i will feel the magic while i bath using mickey mouse soap.and jump on mickey mouse beds.and have ice cream.Every Single Day.

at night,i will watch the fireworks behind cinderella's castle,before falling asleep and dreaming of prince charming.i'll wake up again to shake pluto's hand and watch the parade..and..i'll wear the mickey mouse ears !and buy the mickey mouse gloves and get tempted by all these advertising gimmicks.ooohh i can just about remember how sweet the place was.the air was sweet.like toffee and caramel and whipped cream and candy floss and swirly lollipops.

i love wall-e. disney never fails.
minus high school musical. skdhg ehg ardfgjafd

he went,last time before he left to the states
he complained
"do you know how many times ive already been to disneyland?"

oh.some of us just dont know what we have!another side of the world want so badly for the things we've already touched and felt and tasted and smelled.and you know,im very thankful for everything i have right now.theres nothing else i could want ;"because desire binds you"
(except maybe when it comes to better grades and free phone calls)


im a green monster. like poison ivy and her toxic kiss..okay no.thats sexy.im mean and ugly.im like the blob monster who goes "baahahahwawajaahahwaabaaa!" and drops slime and gobbles people up.



T_T - crying. edward's fault.i always thought it meant sepet-eye.
Maria Amani says: DONT BLAME EDWARD
i am sick! T_T

guys never do what you want them to.you know how in some movies,theres always this mad weird man whod drag his never and go -"nevvvvvvvvvveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeerrrrrrrrrrrrr.everrrrr!" ?
yeah.same applies.guys nevvvvvvvvvveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeerrrrrrrrrrrrr.everrrrr do what you want them to.

the sun ,the sky, the sea
the trees, the grass, the sand
these are all i live for
the love, the warmth,the family
the friends ,the secrets, the smiles
these are all i live for,
-no more
than such simplicity.

wait and wait and wait. and thats love isnt it ? love is patient.
it took us two years.and more.and every day i still think about -
im waiting for that sunflower,boy.
(and ur smile)
like seashells and spring!
and then everything else will vanish,and it will just be the both of us.


my favourite poem is walt whitman's 'miracles'.

no NS 4 sha!

i hate

piano exams,

results,

and filling up forms.

i hate

how guys never understand .

i love lemonade though,

and im very thirsty.

i love running away,

and escaping,

from how things really are.

work fear hope fear hope fear work

postit paper cranes

i hate scales and exam results and applications and thinking about the future.

"Si c’est ici le meilleur des mondes possibles, que sont donc les autres?
optimisme c’est la rage de soutenir que tout est bien quand on est mal."

but i guess theres no real harm in them

Hope is the only bee that makes honey without flowers.

today i wont blog about mckl or the nerdism or the friends ive made there.i could blog about how much i love the strumming of a guitar.
blindfold me and let me listen
make me swoon.
when i was 12 i told myself if i ever got myself a boyfriend,he should be able to play the guitar,love what i love,shower me with gifts,call me everyday,wear clothes with witty lines,and brown kicks,and play basketball,be as simple as ever,inexperienced so we can experience the world together.
then eu shang walked past.
and i got caught.
tangled.
trapped.
so im really thinking about my gfs and how they go "i want an italian boyfriend,who can cook and buy me flowers every day and take me around the world and hold my hand and have good tastes and be able to shop,and think me,the most beautiful woman in the world"
and wonder how it will really be when its time to commit next time.
chuckles.

i feel like wearing a raincoat.a yellow raincoat.
and carry a black umbrella.
dont ask whats the point of having a raincoat if ur already holding an umbrella.

i love duplo.
u know,its lego,bt bigger,friendlier,brighter.
one day i shall start to play duplo again.and move the little creatures and make up conversations..
place them in their beds,or on top of elephants,on the swing,in the farm house or the tree house..
imagination.i value the imagination
hehe





i read timeout kl,and love it.

i had lunch alone the other day while waiting for my father.then i walked to kiddies store and flipped through travel magazines.and ive never really been one who fancied,or dream,or hoped,or wished with every aching feeling,to travel.
truthfully,i rather read and let books take me there.
bt that was until i saw the pictures.i never googled pictures or realized how.
wow.

i sense a stranger in the house.
another guest.
I seriously HEAR SOMEONE.and kids.
oh.its mom's friend from the US.
and the last time i saw his daughter.
she was a new born
not a skinny 6 year old looking girl.

time.is very mean to us.
two hour chemistry classes
should be like our two hour breaks

a blue bmw convertible just drove past my house.

u know what Else sucks about long distnce?
the time difference.we already have our differences.now u add Another difference.its not very comforting.
bt at least i dont have to fight with kimberly anymore. :)
not for now anyway.

in a fix in a fix
tell my mother im not applying for law.
to cambridge
and that "not a lot of people do so"
is a lie she made herself believe

One could not count the moons that shimmer on her roofs
or the thousand splendid suns that hide behind her walls

bathing time instructor

shonna,myself and rachel.theres usually kai li hovering around somewhere ..unless she feels like studying alone or doing her own thing in her own fussy way..these are the three girls i spend most of my time with in (nerd-)college.not out of choice,out of Pure Obligation.chuckle.alright,fine,i joke.

I am bored.and if mr.jp reads this (but i doubt he ever will ) hed probably give his usual sarcastic comment or scold because im blogging instead of doing his homework.li anne is having a spanish frenzy.bt i can bet its just a phase.she always go through phases.
like mei's cousin who says cute things like "in naruto episode 311,itachi did the tempuraagadeshi (replace this with a real japanese fighting term) to sasuke and then sasuke fell onto the floor and hit a rock where in exploded into this black hole..."
currently though both shen and lianne are conversing (on msn) in a language i am NOT familiar at all with.well,not so much shen,shes just typing gibberish.
i miss the rest of the girls.truly.
bt i say that too often,one might think myself as a deprived,spoilt,wretched seventeen (in a few months!) year old who cannot live at all without her friends. not a bit independent.
blah you.blah blah blah you.
i cried towards the end of jane eyre.
oh i have a new phone.nt that anyone is interested. its called the retarded phone. well,or so ching remarked. or was it mei ? or was it both of them ?
i still havent added most of my contacts in it.its been nearly a week.bt one should know how dead darn lazy i can get.i wish sometimes,that things would just get done on their own.

then i could just sleep my life away and dream and fantasize and hope and imagine frivolous things by myself. and i wouldnt be lonely. or ever sad.
i would be like a princess in my own little world.with my pink tiara.and in the real world,my body might rot.bt for all i care! because inside i will be happy.amidst the glitter and stars.
glimmering.
sparkling.

winking.

oh shut up sha,dont seem emo.

its time for dinner.i bet we're having rice.i dont like chinese food very much.i love indian food more.i dont know why.maybe i was an indian beggar in my past life.so the lust i have for such spices stil exist in me.

or something like that la.

sha hates sundays more than she hates mondays.i think.maybe she hates both just as much.i know on sundays i dread the thought of going back to waking up early,and on mondays im just as grumpy as i am on sundays,because i had to wake up early.

im a lucky girl.i break more than plates.yes boo? :).except hearts.cheese and rice,i hate the thought of heartbreaks.its like having a rope magically tie itself around ur heart.

you're caught.

all somebody has to do is tug it.as slowly or as gently as he likes.

and then it will start to hurt.

shiver.deplorable.

should be thinking good thoughts

like..

OMG EDWARD IS ONLINE.

i am happy.

li-anne. things just stick in my brain. says:
nomostros somos LOCAAA!
sha says:
kabushi harata no ka to me nooo!!
sherene says:
chichicha cha la

in his bedroom smoking weed

that flower was from ching's ear.not mine

maths classmates.
haha,the cool nerd is the only one not wearing halter.

ex wesleyans.

bbq night wasnt so spectacular.

bt it was ALRIGHT i guess

we had our laughs,no doubt

joseph looks so weird.

SHONNA and i ! i love this girl to bits and pieces and scraps.

the four of us who do the same subjects. and since rach insists on elaboration

the four of us who eat lunch tog and share the same locker and laugh tog and talk tog and walk tog and read tog and write tog and ..

and have worn the same colour on the same day..Twice.

i painted the silver parts and the blue and bits of the red and..

ching,ky and i

omfg we look like kids

cj the dj