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life is tiring.exams.timetables.books.pens.dates.notes.equations.articles.

i want to be your everything - -
twiddle twiddle swirl swirl turn turn
move ur fingers fast
across the keys

the leaves are being blown by the wind.
like a hundred ballerinas
pppfffsstt!!
i hear rain.

omg im so restless

weeds whisper

edward cant go online anymore.

work load.

applications done.

frustration

i feel like a worm

im afraid.

i feel emo this sunday

thank you

my eyes are closed.thank you,thank you,thank you.

thank you for faith,thank you for hope,thank you for love.

thank you for sunshine,thank you for clouds,thank you for trees

thank you for stars,thank you for breeze,thank you for darkness

thank you for tears,thank you for laughter

thank you for sound,thank you for sight,thank you for smell,thank you for touch.

my eyes are open.thank you,thank you,thank you.

theres just so much to worry about that im just going to throw it all away.crunch in up into to a ball and aim.farewell.

and then im going to stand up and smile and move on to other things.theres really no point just getting so worked up,no matter how important it may be.things should be just left to fate.or destiny.or karma.or luck.or god.or whichever u prefer.

ive tons of homework to catch up on,had a good day doing comm serv yesterday and sometimes i wish i could read minds.

yellow umbrellas protect u from the rain.bt i like to run in the rain,and stand in the rain and skip in the rain .without the yellow umbrella. i dont even have a yellow umbrella. my umbrella is pink. nasty nasty colour. ive a pink dress,a new one. dont ask why i chose that colour,i just had that buzz telling me to pick something different for a change.

sometimes i wish i wasnt a pts student. sometimes i wish u could understand that. sometimes im glad you dont .sometimes i dont feel a year younger. sometimes i still think what if. sometimes i believe it was meant to be.

whats done is done is done is done is done. like my ucas application. i shall tell the world and those who read this,that i applied for english at the three universities of my choice.and then for law,with my english lit personal statement,crossing my fingers that i do exceedingly well for the LNAT,im yet to take.my ielts results come out this week.im crossing my fingers for that as well. why do we cross our fingers?

which is strange.i dont usually like changes. unless they are good ones. but even then,its difficult to forget how it was previously.the past haunts me.

and the future tempts me with frivolous,unnecessary fantasies and false hope.

i shall slam the phone down. i dont want to listen or hear you anymore. goodbye dream,im living in the present now,opening my eyes to reality.

i have stood up and now i am going to open my books,unzip my pencil box and start my work.

ur such a stupid child! omg !

tacky

sometimes i still want to --
rip her hair off

applications.cambridge wants it in asap so i have to get it all done asap. dont ask why im applying there. when ur encouraged to try,a little hope springs up in you.

3-2/4-1


i dont want i dont want i dont want i dont want

im scared you know.
but theres just something so strong.and i feel so sure.
and i feel so stupid,feeling so sure.
mother said i use the word "and" too much

i want to save the world.

asjfhsidjfhisljdhflsdhfkvs47823sdjhfsfasdhfslkdjfhsdjfsdoooodaaadeeee. mathematics.i abhor.but arumei is very nice. physics.mechanics.graph.log.probability. die die die. we shouldnt be negative. wont do us much good.

in a strapless bra and a tube dress.it keeps falling down sometimes.im not so flat anymore,though
right?
being a woman is tough.
the struggle of it every month
the terror of a virgin
the excitement of motherhood
the frown from society
the abuse of marriage

i bet its easier having balls and a dick.
hello, welcome.its a man's world.
but why,they're so Stupid. Like yi di said (shes clicking,i like her) - "he tends to forget to tell me vital things like that"
erections. but they cant even stand up for themselves properly.they're full of excuses and lies.

(erm.sometimes)

its our 33rd month. yeah i cant believe we still count either. i guess there are little corny bits in our relationship . its only normal isnt it.

my best friend is a gaazillion miles away. and you know what?
today.i dont care.
if its been so painful for so long. it doesnt matter.it doesnt bother me. the ignorance,lies,arguments,shouting..
i still have him.
thank you for listening to me.


Pigeonitic and eduardo a LONG time ago .for once boy,ur looking so much better than i am.
(how come when u start to claim urself in love.noone else looks so good ?)
*sticks out tongue,runs away and hides behind a bigger guy.like shasha*

edward.oxbridge isnt a place.u cant say the professor at oxbridge without the s behind professor.

uk is the shiz and i miss the girls.ring ring ring.sometimes im proud,snobbish and arrogant.and prejudice.
its no wonder why i like pride and prejudice and colin firth in a wet white top. maria,i dont know what to blog about. fragments of my mind. of what i think and would like to say. i hate underarm hair lah!
god is great. i could never get pass mario level 3. i suck at video games,or any sort of games. except board games. that,i love to play. but not a lot of other people do. i could play alone or teach the dog to play with me but im not an only child. i once wished i was, but jen is alright,shes sweet ..when shes not having that teenage-attitude problem she suddenly discovered.
depression is genetic,boo .they're talking about it in my room right now,in hokkien,thinking i dont understand. the dog barks when the dog sees me because i am the only one who takes the dog out to play and pet and carry and hold the dog.

ring ring ring. hello ?

long distance means.u cant kick him when hes being stupid

i hate the male ego. if i could shoot it down with a revolver, i would. or hit it hard with a lead pipe. but instead i laugh because i know they're all so ignorant and we're superior. you are what u eat. i consume tons of sugar. i am sweet. lick me.

bye bye.

semester

'umbrella' song plays.ching whines.ram goes "luckily shes not singing that unbrella song"

hah,pride.we're of the 24% of the 25 years.i miss high school.nostalgia.gymrama kids are still sweet.wms choir and ensemble,pretty impressive.teachers are so dedicated sometimes.mr moore met mr jp!my name is not noisy la.teasing ky is fun.and cool nerd,zu ning as well.sometimes they will believe any shit you tell them.i am not a bully though.haha.good to see the alumni and my old teachers.i bought a new dress.good evening ladies.i cant sit still and im very messy during dinners.

silver.its 25 years old.

sorry shen,for missing ur bday surprise.happy belated.i love you tons,u know that.

skinny girls should be injected with fat.well except u,rachel.and u,carmen.and other skinny girls who are my friends.people should read better books and chiclit should be banned.why should stupidity be encouraged?eh shonna needs facebook la.i miss the girls.a fucking lot.blah blah blah the work i have to do,the errands i have to run,the applications to fill.

why cant we just go back to the canteen and laugh.

ielts test tmrw

after a very very very long time,we finally got to see serene again

shes still the same.just the hair colour changed.and maybe boob size.

ching hadnt seen her since she left in mid jan

ching is very weird.


It was good to be with both of them again.
rephrase-
it was good to be with serene again.
rephrase-
it was good being the three of us again

there are just some things in life ,

that cant be replaced.