oh and this is for brian moey. XP

whoever you are.

to the (horribly useless and heartbreaking) boyfriend who celebrated his 18th birthday (with the sexiest girl alive) on the 28th,this month,

love you la.

Stoopid.

:P

Fucking Fun Females

Yesterday was the official launch.


stupid boyfriend came to help out. : )

stupid chauvinistic best friend helped too

but then at about 4 pm,i had enough of testosterone and the egoistic male attitude.
in the evening,theleven celebrated chyi's bday:


no.we didnt take many pretty pics

but got wan laaa..

my girls are fucking incomparable

we dont need boys for fun
(sorry la boon)


we're beautiful like this

Trruullllyy beautiful.

i really hope u had a good one,chyi !

grab

: i love them

lately ive been distracted
today,i feel sick.
soon,i must start to study.
right now,Fly.Fm is playing that BLOODDY STUPID SONG.
"I hate this part right here.i hate this part right here"
omg. shut up

sneeze sneeze.my throat hurts.if i were a boy,id do something different.like commit suicide.

anyway.
ive beeen helping out and some customers are annoying but most bring cute little kids. its fun to work there cos its a very friendly place.shonnrachkailiandjeewen had lunch there today.and eugene,yesterday.i think it was so sweet of them

i have to study.fuck wei.
oh the boyfriend is back before he goes to uni next year.

last week of college this year
i cant believe im admitting this
but..
im gng to miss it.
not so much the nerd paradise with Many strange,difficult people and annoying cats and broken facilities and over obsessions about how to dress and all that.
but,my friends.
i mean,i wouldnt say im particularly close to many of them because i still have that high school nostalgia and it seldom beats being with the gorgeous theleven and nothing was as fun as trio.
but some of these new friends..
well,they arent so new anymore,lets put it that way.theres familiarity and comfort.
like hot chocolate and marshmallows.mmmmm

jean is in kl ! not that anyone except those really close to me,would know who jean is.bt those really close to me probably forgot.

-I WANT TO SLEEP

i hate your broken promises so much i could kill someone and then kil someone else.Really.

mom opened a restaurant
well a cafe,on the kids floor at bsc (4th)
hint hint hint
and NO i didnt fall,spill or break anything
OR use any form of profanity
i even played with the kids
and enjoyed it.

:)

zomg,synchronized abuse.

my girlfriends, are the best.

really.



some of us might make weird noises at night

and none of us know where kota kubu is

but i love the humour.

i love the random-ness

and how we,you know,

feed each other..

THANKZZ LI ANNEZZ

im so tired

but happy.mhmm.

i like i like - you

H1. What’s your ambition?
someone who reads and writes and then reads some more.bt gets paid for doing all that,of course.i mean,i would do it for free,bt then id starve.

2. Who is more important to you? Friends or boy/girlfriend?
this depends on my mood.
HA HA HA.

3. How often do you think of committing suicide?
I dont know.Rarely.
when i go "nnggrhhhfuckinghell i want to kill myself!!"
i dont mean it,u know

4. Do you think you have enough confidence?
Most of the time. Depends.
CONFIDENCE.
sounds like coffee and dance.which i cannot get enough of. ever.

5. How many babies you want?
Ohmigod.ur actually asking me that.
Im not so motherly,purlease.i think im too protective. And id have high expectations for certain things.
Seriously.if my child wanted to read something like 'twilight' ,Id ..scream.
Id probably screw them up with my mood swings.
And i dont want to get fat.Im sorry.Im too selfish to be a mother.

6. Favorite perfume/fragrance?
mine.
cos i want to be the best smelling person in the world.
L'occitane. the mimosa one. bt they dont sell it in kl anymore,bloody hell.

i like the smell of marker pens.black ones. and incense.
and hot guys.
not that i go around smelling hot guys (this is because i live in a country which lacks a good number of them)bt im sure they smell nice.
unless they just got out of the gym and are sweaty..then maybe not.

7. What do you think will be your greatest downfall?
same as amani - boys.
I hate to admit this.
i feel like punching something.

8. Do you believe in eternal love?
Yeaahhhhhhh . I think so.

9. What's a perfect girlfriend/boyfriend like to u? (List 10)
the perfect boyfriend? "oh,i dont think i should like that.it sounds like something from another world !"
okay yea i quote oscar wilde a lot.
bt theres no such thing.ideals dont work.

10.What feeling do you love most?
Satisfaction and joy from the little things like pixie dust and pebbles and rain and silver linings.

11. What are your bad habits?
i swear too much .
hitting people, just have to sometimes..

12. Is there anything you wanna tell the people who hate you?
"ur very very ignorant but its okay,i like how my name looks in sanskrit! "
no..
"okay yeah i Know im bitchy sometimes and i Know i flirt with baristas and have a lot of secret lovers,
bt really,
im a nice girl."

no i wouldnt want to say that
i dont know.
i think i just want to say

"oh? okay"

13. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
Fuck yeah.i bloody hell do
a lot.
A LOT.

14. What do you hate most in others?
Ignorance.No,Stupidity.
like for example.
those stupid sluts,insipid whores (haha pia!),those cheap,easy and desperate bitches. gosh.its an embarassment to my sex.
Pretence.

15. What do you crave for the most currently?
Company. mmmpppfftttt.
Zommmgg i cant wait for tmrw night,i need the girls.

16. What features/quirks do you find totally sexy on a guy/girl?
The eyes.you know that way certain guys just look at you.
the way a guy walks. well except, some guys do it weird.
Intelligence.but not the straight A's-academically-smart-guy. just the i-can-talk-to-him-about-anything-under-the-sun-from-automobiles-to-zoos-because-he-keeps-it-very-interesting-guy
I dont know,different guys have different sexy traits.

i want.
a hot guy in a wet white shirt.

17. Describe the person who tagged you in 7 words.
i cant describe amani,shes really indescribable.
HAHAHA

18.What have you done to yourself to make yourself happy?
i read the dhammapada.its enlightening.
see that glow?
hell yeah.

19. What will you become in another 10 years to come?
27.
taller with bigger boobs,with my underarm hair permanently removed.
HA HA.I dno laaa

20.Soo,is mr darcy sexy or is mr darcy sexy?
mr darcy is sexy.

InstructionsRemove one question from above and add in your personal question.Make a total of 20 questions and tag 8 people.List them out at the end of the post.

rach chua
ching?
jee wen ? i dno.. who else blogs in mckl ?whoever you are..i doubt u even read my blog in the first place.
LI ANNE COS SHE HASNT FREAKING UPDATED HER BLOG.stupid job.

is that 8 ? whatever.

i will not study today.msian studies is unnecessary.

globed peonies

we all need ugly shots sometimes.

this post is to tell anyone reading this post
that
i miss my girlfriends.

edit:

i effing miss my girlfriends.

i ramble.

fuck yeah.

edward is with His friends.

its pretty unfair because im so much closer to my friends and ive done more work than he has ever, so im the one who actually deserves the good two weeks with my friends at the beach-break.

but life is unfair i guess.and at least someone is happy.

i think this is when u look at me and say you're a bitchy girlfriend who just wants to snap back because he has no credit and cant email you,so you're being grouchy.

bt NO LA.
the truth hurts anyway .and im just being honest.
its better that way
its tiring to pretend.

tobair vree!

i want to play mafia

no.

i want to play monopoly

with them.

i would say that i want to play taboo

but maria amani would then comment

about how i suck.

but taboo is So fun.

she had a sex change,lisha has no boobs and yeah,anakin is from lord of the rings.

why is it so fun with the girls ?

oh ya.

cos they're not boys

boys suck.

sometimes.

and these girls always have funny stories to tell.

i love my girls.

because they dont cheat or lie or betray.

i can be such a workaholic

i scare myself.

highschool

i miss it too,maria

the classes.the rules(and how we never forgot to break them).the teachers(and how we couldnt help but hate some of them).the friends,the friends,and more friends and at every corner,that wave and that smile from them.the food and the sexy zip aunty.the curses at the basketball court and sweat dripping from those big boys or hairy boys,soaked shirts-blue,red,green,yellow.the flights of stairs(and here we sang,remember?).the foyer and where we jumped around and laughed and held hands,where we told secrets,made friends and lied,or prayed.the homework(and how we never bothered to finish them).the big bags we carried and the books we had to hold before leaving them secretly under our drawer(or anywhere else).the balconies and the flying shoe.the office we were told to go to,even though it wasnt really our fault.the time when she said and he said and they said.the good morning sir.the thank you madam.the times we cried because of silly things(remember when i threw at her the tupperware?).the place where we first met him.or her.and then started holding hands,and having the whole school know of our silly young relationships.the cows outside school.the dirty yellow school bus.the uniform(we quite detested) and the shoes (that could never be kept white).remember the prefects who told us off? and how we teased them back.remember the food sales and carnivals and responsibilities.the dreams.the pens,rules,liquid papers(we insisted on having),pencils and protractors.the stack of exam papers and the hours of solving sums and writing essays or creating experiments.the science laboratories and the library (where we still talked and bitched about the nerdy librarians) and the new school hall and the lecture theatre

and how everything seemed

like home.

familiar.safe.warm

with each other..

yeah.i still miss that.

fuck yeah i miss that

Jane Austen Post. words words words

i got allocated to corpus christ college at cambridge.this means,that if that 0.3% chance happens,and i do get to the best university in the whole wide world (in my opinion,that is),then thats where i would be studying,sleeping,dreaming,eating,dressing,walking around at. but even if i dont get in,and dont get to see everday,that beautiful chapel and that old building and sneak myself to the underground cellar,or get the chance to meet the ghost of the college,or jump around among green grass or snow or red autumn leaves there,it doesnt matter.at least i had once,these dreams.
gawd why do i sound blooddyyy pathetic and nonchalent.

When i die,IM HAUNTING THIS PLACE.

tmrw i have my englit6 paper.yeahhuh.jane austen. (this is when u ask me, wtf are u doing online blogging then?and i shall answer "..i dno.im out of coffee and i have a headache and i want to pee" which doesnt actually answer the question but sometimes,our questions dont get answered because they shouldnt or because they cant or because im trying to think of something profound to add to this sentence but im failing.. smiley)

i love jane austen.
im serious.its just a bit sick how you can enjoy one subject and the author and the books but still not score an A. lit Is tough.but fun fun fun fun,i'll spend the rest of my life in the library with no cocktails or secret lovers(only to be understood by theleven)
reading,learning,smelling literature even toh some people like pranav might call it "dry".

and i would rant on but i doubt anyone would actually bother through. bt seriously,jane austen is wonderful.
i used to Hate Emma.
but i think,like her,we learn to mature. and then our thoughts change and we realize certain things.
i love how theres no need for wild,insane women or supernatural feelings.
just simplicity-life as how it is.
i love how i can still relate to(and laugh at) these women,although they wear long dresses and have names like "Augusta" or "Caroline".
i love how i can fall in love with mr.darcy's "if your feelings are still what they were last April,tell me so at once" over and over again,like a silly girl.
i love how austen points out all our flaws and makes us laugh at them,or learn from them.
i love how shes so observant about the little things we dont usually see ourselves,instead of the big things,like war that we always hear about.

i love how most guys just dont get Jane Austen,and i know its because they Dont Want To,stupid bastards.its Not just about romance and love and beauty and marriage and happily ever afters and chasing the men and proposing
its Not 19th century chic lit (anymore.mhmm,yeah i thought it was at one point)
its about Life,People and Their Sins (which are completely normal),how we think and what we think and why we think so;our ridiculous habits,exaggerated.
(its also sometimes about the strengths of women,that the idiotic male species like to take advantage and discriminate sometimes.i feel like a sexist.one day i shall write a post on males,and why they rock.i WILL.one day)
its about Us.

but anyway.this post was just to type out this quote:

"..the wife
of Mr.Darcy

( THATS ME !SHA!)

must have such extraordinary sources of happiness (HELL YEAH) necessarily attached to her situation,that she
could,upon the whole,have no cause to repine"

Kai li's Obama-massum and new tv. after tmrw TRIALS ARE OVER.and then we have to study for fucking january! omggggg alevels u suck . edward's hsc ends tmrw! and then fucking bastard will be free and off with his friends at some beach (stop that grin) while i SUFFERR. oh i miss him so much,and im so ENVIOUS. i tell you. one day im gng to win the nobel prize and go "thank you edward,because while you WERE ON HOLIDAY AT THE BEACH,i was studying,and i think that really cultivated such determination and passion...."

chortle.

and then i'll twirl around with an umbrella in front of him and throw my head back and LAUGH.

stupid guy in australia.u make my heart go dokidokie.

this pic makes me laugh.

I Love how the piano sounds

-and ur voice.

:)

fucking long post

to edward

i miss edweird.

if ur reading this..

i just got the..

(air flown-this is when other people start getting jealous)

letter

and sure,it took you two years

ten months

and a few more days

to do something

like this

for me

but i'll fuck the delay and

thank you .

because im going to be the happiest girl in the world for a very long time.

im going to gloat for months over this.

and in fact,you made my day.

(its a bloody monday)

no in fact,

ive never been so euphoric

or so sure before..

that ur

(THAT MR DARCY IVE BEEN LOOKING FOR!)

mr.perfect

who chased the butterflies away.

and caught me

love,

li-sha