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i dont want a favourite who has been to jail
so i'll just find another favourite

(edward,jangan jealous)

i cant believe shes thirteen

(there was a longer candle bt we took that out because it got in the way of the camera)

Stuck at home,trying to study,missing all my friends.

lalalaalalalalalalallaallalalaalallalalalalalalalaa


oh.happy birthday li anne.i love you for everything.


lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalaa


i should make this into a song
this is a song
lalalala
im so smelly right now
lalalala
this is my song
my boobs hurt
ouch! ouch!
lalalala
i must study
lalalala
but im so lethargic
lalalala
oh well whatever
ooo baby ..

grumpy old man and his autobin

the other pics were More retarded,i assure you.

HAAHAHAHAHHAHAHAAAA.mom bought me that.I laarrve it.

i Know.guys are the best at this age.

ching,i wore your necklace.

MERRY CHRISTMAS !

i want Edward CULLEN (...and teoh?)

BOOze turned 17

we did the usual 3gether thing

with jen



and wai hoe!

and obi wan!

HAAAPPPPYYY BIIIRRTTTHHHDAAAAYYYY!

naked on the table

i love tong yuin
im so blady hell lucky to belong to such a happy-close-knit sort of family..


..who love me for how i am.

18 days left:emo post

im going to study and be serious about it and get those A's and make my parents proud cos thats the one thing i fucking want.

i hate having to study in december.i mean,its the bloody christmas season.the whole Dramatic end of the year thing when we all just sit back with cookies and milk and turkey and tong yuin ,together with Family and laugh,reflect and make faulty resolutions.im telling you,this is torture.

after the end of my alevels,im expecting a certificate or recognition of some sort for all this procrastination and hard work. like a silver medal or something. or one of those huge ass trophies i dont have (i have such tiny ones,like they're so kiasu or something) saying something like :- you went through a lot,but you got out of it and ur right,alevels is a bitch,so we're thanking you anyway for dealing with it.ur incredible!

and dont tell me that i should just learn to endure and look around because other people arent as privileged and other people are suffering with more difficult work and all that.
i mean,if rich people can be so unsatisfied about their flashy clothes and fuckedup big houses,or yeah,like all those skinny girls who complain about being fat..then SO CAN I about something else.

no,my period just ended.
bt im going to be cranky right now anyway (funny,i remind myself of kai li.hahaha) and i dont care if santa puts me on his naughty list for this because hes so darn fat anyway,bloody bastard.
no.i WANT to be on the naughty list. *chortle*
i wonder if his wife is on the naughty list *more chortling*
like when shes all dressed up for him in silky lingerie,does he go " oooo Yeah,ur definitely on my naughty list,baby".
so does that mean he doesnt give her anything since shes on the naughty list ?
what a terrible man. bt thats kinda expected from a rosy cheeked creature with a white beard,i guess.
he is considered a creature,right? santa claus isnt human..is he?
or is he just santa claus like how god is god.

i cant believe i went from such frantic and passionate complains (or what i would have liked them to be) to santa claus.
i TOLD YOU ,we shouldnt study in december.
its blady fucking abuse.it should be under the law or something.
cos im like emotionally and somehow psychologically affected .i just made myself a fizzy apple drink. and i usually HATE carbonated drinks.see..im slowly becoming a different person..then one day i'll evolve into like the hulktress.except i wouldnt be green.id be diluted pee colour-cos thts the colour of the drink im drinking now.

and u know,i really didnt do anything wrong.im a nice girl.
those "freaks" (this is for calvin to understand)
i mean-
i thought GOOD THINGS happened to GOOD GIRLS.
what the hell happened to That HUH.dont tel me tv lied about that too.

im sleeping early

today i went to eugene's book launch.
aaaaaaannnddd..i bought his book.
aaannnddddd my name is inside (ive been gloating about this too much,i think)
aaaaaaannnd i saw peako!
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaannnddddd edward also la... (he wore the shirt i bought him three years back)
and his two siblings.
(and before that,we had to have lunch with my sister. thats the THING about being the eldest child!)
i would blog about the whole event.
except eugene's friends were outside instead of inside of the restaurant,so i barely heard,or saw anything.i didnt even have the free food.

but blah all that.
i guess
i am happy that he has finally published a book of his poems.



right now im very very pissed.and emo

im gng to drink milo.

bedarl

we've fallen a lot

but we still have fun a lot

i guess thats just how love is,eh?

happy 3rd anniversary,edward.

(thank you boo,serene,ching and ben.

without the four of you,

there wouldnt have been the two of us)

yeah yeah b flat

i have been procrastinating.well not so much,because i have done a little bit of work.okay okay,i'll start tomorrow.its just edward is back and ive been pmsing and my sister is on holiday and..
i should come up with better excuses like "i spend my hours praying for the victims of the landslide" .reading those articles today was emofying.i just hope and pray and wish that everyone affected would
smile.

the xmastree is up!
(its christmas again,mei..)
im feeling so nostalgic.oh bloody end of the year holidays.
my boobies are painful.its soon to be that time of the month. i watched anastasia and actually teared.yeah yeah,its gng to be that time of the month again.but i wont complain so much (not on this blog anyway,cos thats what u have ur boyfriend for) about being a girl because i love it. men and boys and creatures with testosterone and testicles might think they're superior with their heartbreaking schemes or incredibly dominant because they can lift heavier things,but they dont know how it is when a girl has fun with her loyal,dependent gilrfriends (because Their guyfriends are just hooking up with each other's sluts) or how it is to swirl around in a pink dress or look sexy by just crossing your legs and taking a bite at your sunglasses.
(okay those were them first examples i could think of laa)
im feeling so nostalgic.i bet its the whole december 11 thing,when i was fourteen years old and we played that prank.three years ago.he should take me on a date next week.i just told him that im blogging *which indirectly means, "im going to have a new post up soon,u better read it*
so : i love indian food,sweet desserts,tuberoses (i also love daises,lillies and ginger flowers) and i love books,you know and holding hands,walking around at night.i would ONE DAY,like to try the whole typical romantic thing.you know,candlelights and intimate gazes and fireworks and waves and guitars and instant photographs.
although i think fifteen minutes of it might be more than enough to kill me.
if he doesnt get the hint from all that,im SO telling the world how hes hurt me and been a bad bad bad boyfriend and how he has ABUSED ME SO BADLY THAT I..KEEEPP BLEEDING I KEEEP KEEP BLEEDING (love).
(i'll keep posting it up on postsecret)

currently pranav is bored.
currently i am bored
currently i bet a lot of people are hell bored
and now i quote sam bong:
"we always have too much of time,or too little time.never just enough"

lala.oh we call them fobs. *edited*

spent the whoolee day with jean today!

im blooodddyy tired now but whatevs,it was so good meeting up after 10 years.

yeah yeah fun fun! :)

15.67

omg we actually look sane.



it feels like just yesterday (all my troubles seemed so far away!)
it doesnt make sense because three years ago wasnt yesterday
Yah hor!
yesterday,i went to the Gardens at MV,for breakfast and father tapau-ed kai fan for us and it wasnt his 15th birthday and serene wasnt in kl.
yeah,yesterday,i didnt see that black shirt in my cupboard because i think a year ago,i gave it away and i definitely didnt wear that shell necklace because im not into those sort of things anymore.
YEAH ,YESTERDAY,i was the girlfriend,not pretending to be.
but it STILL feels like it was just yesterday.
that serene and i got our manicure.was it our first? and how we tried to surprise him with that cake,and then giggled together while waiting.
fucking hell,i didnt give two fucks about university or alvls.
i was ENJOYING the fact that pathetic PMR was over.

but im not complaining.ive bigger boobs now.

its the first of december.idiotic calvin woke me up with a msg that got me effing nostalgic this morning.
so i just have to blog again.
im like an over blogger.i should be studying chemistry or reading alias grace or memorising hormones or practicing mechanics or finishing my jam and bread
but instead im blogging.this always happens.
oh well.ching's fault.i switched on the laptop cos of her.

i hate making the first move
bt i know if dont do anything
noone will
see,they suck that way.

mrs.dalloway is waiting for me upstairs.

"bio ...?"

"bio book!"