for the first time.in a long time.ive nothing to rant about in my blog.i think im getting old.
so anyway,tagged.

1. Name the people you tagged.
whoever.

2. Describe yourself in one word.
proud
bias.
loud.
SMELLYAFTERRUNNINGAROUND
no...nice.
no..simple.
no no..calvin would like this,if he still remembers saying this :rojak
*cringe*,what a word to use.

3. Who would you pick, someone who really loves you, or the one you love?
i dont get it.pick for what ?
the dance? to spend the rest of my life with ? to eat dinner with ? to have sex with ?
gee.specify.

4. Have you ever loved someone before but never had the courage to tell him/her?
no.

5. How if people reject your confession face to face?
depends how that person rejects it.
but i think i'll just stand there.
pretend its okay.
or something.

6. God is giving you just 5 more minutes before going back to heaven, IF you love someone special, what will you say to that person?
i want to go to heaven now.bye.take care of our kids! i love you! dont go sleeping around .(im assuming that im gng to die when im married,old and wrinkled,suffering from menopause and a stupid husband)

7. What will you say to a person who doesn't want to believe you?
fine dont believe me..but REALLY.IM NOT LYING.ur so annoying,i hate you.stupid.

8. Was there ever a time that you tried to learn to love someone?
love in what sense? but i was once totally obliged to be tolerate to this kiasugirlihangouteverydayatcollege,noitsnotyoukailireallyhehe because her ways really didnt match with mine at All but now i love her for being who she is,and shes a fucking good friend and fucking fun. (yes,despite that organized-goodgirl reputation she might have among Some Of You)

9. Do you have something special with you all the time?
i used to wear the wrist thing every day.
and then.
it broke
and edward said he would fix it
but.
i lost it
and then i found it
and i havent seen edward for more than a month.

10. Long distance love?
mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
Yeah.Tell Me About It.

11. Best place to cry?
on my bed.
no no no no.what do u mean CRY. i dont cry!im a strong woman.

12. Who do you love the most?
my parents,and my favourite sister even though she doesnt appreciate me singing love songs to her in public.

13. Tell us of your dream last night?
i cant remember.

14. Ever hated someone so bad?
no.

15. The biggest and most hurtful lie you heard?
mmmm........
its not What the lie is about sometimes...just the fact that..its a bloody lie.

16. The last person you had a beer with?
i dont really like beer.or go around drinking beer with people.

17. The last person you went to the movies with?
MY SISTER AND I SHARED A SEAT !
no seriously.at that expensive cinema in gardens.

18. The last person you talked on the cell phone with?
father.but all i said was "okay.love you".

19. The last person you hugged?
my sister? my dad?
i dont know la.

20. The last person you yelled at?
sometimes i dont think im Yelling bt other people get me to "stop yelling".
i dont remember.

21. In the last week have you kissed someone?
mpft.yeah.my lips flew to jordan.

22. Think of the last time you were angry, why were you angry?
dad tried to teach me how to order chicken rice
"say 7 packets.if he doesnt understand,speak cantonese..or malay..and make sure you get a receipt for the cafe.."
and i felt bloody underestimated and told him that i order my own food every day at brickfields
and he said im just telling u and making sure.
okay that was a silly reason to get angry.
WAS THAT THE PURPOSE OF THIS QUESTION?

23. If you could do anything or wish anything, what would it be?
something unexceptionally dirty.

24. If you could have an all expense paid trip, where will you go?
i dont know.sydney.
I CANT BELIEVE I WOULD WASTE IT ON SEEING THAT BUGGER WHEN HE CAN VERY WELL AFFORD TO COME SEE ME..
but yeah.thats the truth..

but if say..on that day,im pissed at him for whatever reason..itd be india.inevitabllyyyyy

25. What you hate the most?
ignorant people .

i try not to hate....
really.

26. What would be the hardest thing for you to give up on?
the people i know..experiences..sensations..the beauty of nature..
just life as it is,i guess

27. Five facts about me:
#1.im a sucker.for many people.
#2.i love reading and writing
#3 three is my favourite number.
#4 im gng to be busy this semester but i still cant find HEANEY.
#5 i enjoy learning.

28. Five things that scare me:
#1 fishes. but im not so bad now.i was looking at the goldfish for five seconds.FIVE SECONDS OKAY.
#2 im scared of letting go of certain people.
death is fine.its just the thought of having to say byebye while we're both still in this world. thats so depressing.
#3 knives.
#4 veins *Edit.haha,thanks,ching!* and blood
#5 failure.well ....the thought of letting people down and crashed hopes etc.

29. Two songs playing in my head lately:
across the universe-the beatles
I Love This Song.

30. Five things I treasure in my life :
things?
ching says people arent things.
1.people i love (family.friends etc)..well,the good relationship i have with all of them. or what i can assume to be good..they might all be backstabbing behind my back.but whatevs
2.trees and clouds and flowers and grass
3.sounds and music and rhythm and beat
4.knowledge,my education,BOOKS.
5.all the food,money and opportunities ive got.

gong hey fatt choy

i miss you very much.

I AM A LUCKY GIRL

my exams are over.
grin.

:)

i just had dinner with pranav (the prick who hasnt read a single jane austen book but believes the comments he has read online),shonna and kai li.
oh
and rachel
of course. hahaha

i just went to the blog.and im missing my girls.
i feel so terribly left out.like i havent heard from them for so so long.
and it was good just reading those monstrously long and random updates.we need to pergi makan again.a cny reunion.
I desperately,need theleven.
awesome awesome girlfriends
my exams just ended.
and i have awesome girlfriends.
its a good night

ooohhhhh
it feels so good
no more text books or notes or mark schemes
or pens or rulers or calculators
or posts its about TTC redox indicators
and how hydrogen reduces it
on my table ,anymore

yay!

so,
cheers to a new beginning
4 months of unit5 chem,unit 6 chem,unit 5 bio,unit 6 bio,coremaths 3,coremaths 4 , heaney,othello,hamlet,emma,pride and prejudice,unseen poetry..
and then.
thats it.
college ends.
and i hide my books for my grandchildren somewhere in my cupboard

and then it will be,a new start
Again.

but right now.
im going to
read.and read and read and read
all the books i want without feeling guilty about not studying instead
and im NOT going to be emo even toh i havent seen ed in a month and wont for another week or more
im going to relax
im going to jump on my bed.
WHICH YOU HAVE TO SEE!! you dont have to climb up anymore.its actually tons more comfortable.

its over
its over
its over
its over
its over

no more alevel exams.
its fucking over!!

(well for now at least)

but u know.
i cant wait till college starts again,
i miss the mckl aura of hardwork and bad tastes..
and im actually serious

rant rant rant.

one day rach might blog about what we did during Quarantine. HAHAHAHA.

my thoughts are all over the place.
mmm,
im happy
im free to worry about other things now.

i am drinking nescafe right now

i hate exams.
seriously.tmrw ive three chem papers.
bio wi was
nghsdfkjshasdasdkjhasfishsticksaresmellysticksjasld.
and so was mechanics.
(and Yes,c2,amani)
OH.AND CHEM3.
stupid blooddyy titre.

my lit 1 paper was delayed.
by half an hour.

obiwan is in hk

i want to share ur excitement and ur regrets.i want to know ur dreams and ur plans.i want to see your world and remember everything about it.
but ur such a pig,
i wish u would fall in the mud.

today im gng to blog about guys.
SOMETIMES,guys can be such pricks.when ur being indirect,they dont get it.and then later on complain- why cant u just tell me straight,its not like i can read ur mind.
then,when U ARE being Completely direct (as how ive learnt to be)..they dont listen.or dont follow.or say they will,but suddenly end up crashing all hopes.
or some call you 'easy' or 'cheap' or 'demanding'
and i hate how some of them dont tell u enough things.like someone and his "i didnt know you wanted to know that" when i asked him why he didnt tell me about his final results,like he was waiting for me to call him so he could tell me his top grades.
or the prick and his "I DID TELL YOU THAT SHA!!Ohmiiggood!"when im very sure he didnt because ive a memory of an elephant's.in fact ive the memory of five elephants put together.one from a malaysian zoo,one from india,one from bali,one from thailand and another one from a random keychain box.
or edward and his "but i tell u Everything i can!" in his omg-ur-being-such-a-troublesome-gf-its-not-my-fault-im-not-as-talkative-as-you tone. i dont like it when he uses this tone.he should be tone deaf because honeybunny doesnt realize that he missed out a number of things,any normal gf -sane,insane,possesive,liberal,stupid,pretty or ugly would like to know.sweetheart is probably reading this and thinking why his gf just blogged about him and our relationship.but sweetiepie,this just goes to show how much i love you,and constantly think of you,even toh ur gng far far away for cny so i cant get any angpaus from ur rich parents.smoochiewooms,i feel like googling ur university because i dont know anything about the place ur gng to spend 5 years at.but i dont want to find it all out myself because im a girl and so,i'll just wait until u tell me all about it and show it to me urself.
yes,darlingcutiepie,i was being direct.
no,fuzzylumpkins,i wont do this on my blog again. ur right,as fun as it is,its very stupid. why do u want the whole world to read it? but the whole world doesnt read my blog.and then ud say something like yes but its out there for the whole world.and id say something like u sound like my mom,but noone reads my blog unless they know me cos its not like im kinkybluefairy or xiaxue.and then ud go huh.who?

see.studying has made me weird..-er than i usually am.

just thinking of shonn's story of the dogs getting stuck during sex.and then how theyd look if they walked,in that position.'like cat dog.but this time,dog-dog'.and how in one amy tan book,there was this story about a woman with too much 'ying',that she killed her husband while having sex (or rather,the husband died when they were having sex) and how they got stuck.
when i have sex.
or if..because it depends if i suddenly want to be a nun or get a sex-phobia or maybe get AIDS somehow and have noone whod want to fuck me,
i dont want the guy to get stuck in me.and die.
ew.traumatic.

i feel like sleeping.its 11.34 am,im drinking nescafe but im tired.
stupid period.

alias grace. must remove tags and little scribblings.

no uni has sent me any offers. sha is very sad.
well,not very.
nevermind la.dont go uni.
just marry into edward's rich family (whom he says arent extravagant...which contradicts with the fact that they've many cars, have been to nearly around the world, live in a big big house (the maids room is bigger than my parents') and Insist on paying half the bill )
chuckles.
not that id want to. the thought scares me.

i dont like rich people.
well.
i dont like the mentality of most rich people.
but thats for another blog post.
although,im not saying i dont like edward's family la!!
uncle,aunty,sister,brother,maid1,maid2..
..car1,car2,car3,car4,telephone1.telephone2,telephone3,telephone4..
(i only have two phones in my house.if i have any more,id have to either put it under the bed.
or on top of the piano)
all very nice.
it just a series of thoughts.

i miss going makan makan around brickfields with fusspot,
i hate-indian-food-pot and i-love-chinese-food-pot.

BLOOGGGEEDDD TOO MUUCCHHHH

bye bye bye bye bye bye

exam anxieties + pms = sha eating a lot of food and feeling very tired

(my tummy hurts)

exams start tomorrow. grumble grumble grumble.

mambo jambo.i shouldnt be blogging.

okay.
bye.

this is for the good times.

2009

HAPPPPYYY NNEEEWWW YYYEAAARRR!