hello addiction

for our adventure,we went to LookOut point,Ampang:

right now im stuck at home because my girlfriends are sick and serene has the swine flu.i feel so restless and bored,that even my books seem tired and dull.

i miss the company.

i was supposed to have gone to the zoo with prick or watched a movie with joseph ling today,but No,i watched Cinderella ..all by myself,instead.

and my boyfriend doesnt have a phone.dont ask.i told you boys are stupid.

GRUMBLE GRUMBLE,i want apple crumble.

new sunnies

i wouldnt say im still very good friends with ba.
its been a very long time ago since we actually talked.im not the fourteen year old girl with that long and restless ponytail,telling him whom i have a crush on and listening to stories at the back of the class.
bt the sentimental,soppy sha will always have a soft spot for her wesleyan baba.
dont get why i still call him that.i can cringe sometimes at the immaturity.but it was funny that day(i cant believe i still remember that day) when i was with my Real Baba and Boon was with his baba,and we were at OneU,and we found out that our Babas actually knew each other.haha!my baba's baba knows my baba.
and to think,i got to know him in form three probably only because he had a crush on the girl who sat behind me.my gosh,michelle and i used to talk and laugh a lot.where is she?
i wont forget also that time when i was so cold and i borrowed ba's jacket.we were in perth,and it was a white jacket.

and he called eddie's house for me when stupidboyfriend hadnt msged or picked up my calls for hours.

i didnt talk to many people last night,but it didnt matter,it was so comfortable and familiar again.it felt good.
fuck it-nostalgia is a crazy thing.

i miss all of it.

yesterday was ba's (boon guan) bday.his place is fucking far away but he was sweet enough to pick us up and drop us back.
best thing was though,that i met up with my beautiful girlfriends again.

it was magical being with my special girl again-
my one and only girlfriend whom i will love no matter what.
red bra for you next time,baby.
:D chuckle.

there were old friends
who Never Changed despite the two years

Speaking of two years...
Kua Li :)

my girls are awesome

my girls are the sex

take a good look at her face.if i get the H1N1 swine flu,its all because of this bitch.
li anne the weirdo.

my girls are fun

my girls are fucktastic

i larve you all la.
you should show wen this picture,wei shi.haha

ba is 19 and he still acts funny

but nothing really matters,if you have
happiness and love and friendship..
and family of course.
which the lucky bday boy had with him.

we all love liverpool,baby!
all but fern,who insists that LFC is the Lih Fern Club instead.
a very desperate and lame excuse to get into the picture.
bt thats fern la.hahaha

Fern in Fun

Doing the typical Chinese thing- Karaoke-ing.
look at jing hang.

HAHAHA.This is so shit

fern,zhei and sha.
shen is missing.hope ur reading this shen,cos i miss you very very much.

crushed

today,calvin was late.
but i had my phone,and my national geographic and my camera and other inanimate objects to keep me company during that one hour and fifteen minutes.
that is retarded-looking calvin.
he was so nice,he temaned me all the way to taman bahagia when he actually had to get to Klcc.

i watched a chick flick with my best friend,ching. i kept spilling my mango juice so i had to use her tissues.
hugh dancy is so Yummy !

i love this simple freedom.

but yeah,rach- i kinda miss us too.
among other things.


mmmmm,i love my friends.
even when they believe that megan fox was once a guy.

you know,i think true happiness comes from making others happy.

2nd day: kia su's

shonna looking at pictures from a chinese magazine

rachel listening to her music

taking luna for a walk.

i lost my glasses when running down the hill with her.

so we had to walk back,get torches,and hunt for them.

fussy kia su kai li found them in the middle of the road,in perfect condition.

:D

I look like i need to pee

kai li's funny face is only funny cos its not funny.

this is the ugly house which we didnt like.i bet a lady cat lives there-

a chinese lady cat

we only watched two movies. i LOVED 'Milk' which the girls slept through.

went back by lrt today with rachel.

im Sleepy.

very very Sleepy.

1st day : shonna's

on melawati hill with pizza and glass bottles of ribena

i loved the lights.

i loved the freedom.

HAHAHA!kai li,you're shit weird la.

shonn and i are wearing our kurtas!

we slept in shonna's living room

this is dog 1 -caramel

this is dog 2 - fudge

this is dog 3- clifford

shonn took us around melawati the next morning

:)

we slept at 6.30 in the morning,after uncle went out to buy our breakfast.i cant believe it.we're usually too exhausted after two exam papers,to study again.but we can stay up to watch three movies.

like fanaa,a hindi movie. its wicked good. and we watched billy elliot,which was shite good as well. and bride and prejudice was fun -

no life without wife.

mr.darcy must have missed me.

an orgasmic freedom

OMG ITS OVER.

its all over.
its all done.
finished.
completed.

and suddenly,i feel so lonely
like something is missing
and so happy
because i dont care
and so different and so strange..

Brilliant.
im overwhelmed with a complicated euphoria.

i cant explain it
i cant believe it

zomg,
fuck yeah.

advancing learning,changing lives.

thats Edexcel's tagline.

my brain feels Sore. im serious.My Poor Cerebrum.

its like theres not enough neurotransmitter substance or theres something wrong with the calcium ion channels or the active sites on the postsynaptic membranes of the neurone or the white matter and grey matter became black matter.

i have to show off all my geeky-science-knowledge quickly before i forget them.

because next week- just one more week..

and i will never EVER touch chemistry or maths-

ever again.

or bio.

i spent a good part of the day doing maths. never in my whole,entire,bloody life have i made such an effort for that most cruel subject.

never.i usually just screw up with maths.

at 8pm tomorrow,i will never have to do maths again.ever.so i might as well put all the effort i can into this last maths paper.

u knw.most of the time,i dont get that complete mark because im careless,not because im stupid.

so the results only show how accurate i am,not how intelligent or quick i am.

why do universities prefer the accurate,less careless students ?
i mean-those people are boring.

its the Mistakes that make us interesting.

its the MISTAKES that make us Human.

but no,we want a more Robotic Stereotyped Species now,dont we.

Well.I rather know im Human.

and what if i were one of those really sweet,good hearted,passionate-willing to safe the world-types..

but i missed out by a few marks,

and the psycho-super-intelligent geek-who plans to take over the world made it,instead.

thats cruel unfair.

i mean SO WHAT IF IM BAD AT MATHS AND CHEMISTRY !

.....cranky.

sha wants to go to the uk,but wishes it was easier.

sha has to remind herself that nothing in life is easy...

..except pie*-

strangely.i Never understood why.

*as easy as pie

i'll keep pushing.

the-11th

another corny post.an attempt to cure exam anxiety.


ive core3,chem4 and chem 5 soon.
and im shit scared because OTHELLO WAS A DICKHEAD last night.

but thank you for comforting me,and staying up with me..
listening to me ramble about homolytic electrophilic substitution
and trying to teach you all about benzene reactions like nitration,chlorination and other things you never heard of before.
thank you for testing my definitions again and again,
and my formulas,even though it was already past 2 am over there and you were obviously tired.

ur an absolute darling.
happy three and a half years ! :)

much love,
sha

worry

the electricity at my place went out for an hour.so i was all alone in my room,in the dark,rolling about in my bed-afraid and uncomfortable. my friend was stressed out last night and i was telling him that everything would be alright.but tonight,Im scared and nobody can tell me that everything will be okay,cos they dont know if it will be. i really want to do well.
i dont know if im working hard enough or if i can work any more,or if im doing anything wrong or if anything will go wrong or-

i despise uncertainty.


ching always says "if you believe you can.you can"

inhales..
i can.

i will.

faith

Aldehyde&ketone: KCN+H2SO4-cyanohydrins-nucleophilic addition,2,4-DNP-hydrozone+H2O-nucleophilic addition followed by elimination-orange ppt,LiAlH4-alcohol-reduction of CdoublebondO,Ketones show no reduction properties-Tollen’s-silver mirror,Fehling’s-red ppt,hot H2SO4+K2Cr2O7-carboxylic acid-oxidation
Carboxylic Acid:Carbonates,RCOONa,salt+h2o.PCL5-acid chloride-LiAhH4-alcohol,R-OH-ester.
Acid Chlorides:Water,carb acid+alcohol,NH3-amide,Alcohol-ester,Amine-nsubamides.
Amine:Acid-salt,Acid chlorides-nsubamides
Amide:Br2+Naoh,heat-1amine,one C less-Hoffman’s degradation,P4O10-amine,dehydration.
Nitrile-Acid-carb acid,NaOH-alkaline hydrolysis.LiAl4 in dry ether-amine.
Benzene-delocalisation of the 3.142haha system due to overlapping of the 6 pz orbital around the ring-stability:Nitration-concH2SO4,HNO3.Bromination-Br2,FeBr2,anhydrous.Chlrination-AlCl3 anhydrous.Alkylation-CH3Cl anhydrous,Alkanoylaton-CH3COCl anhydrous AlCl3
Phenyl amine,preparation:nitration-reduction,SnconcHCL.

3 hours of organic chemistry.Mmmmpft.
Im going to brush away the storm,

and then there wont be any need of running with a bag of chocloates into an empty classroom.

My extra subject,Chemistry,
snatched away all my glee.
It pulled me,grabbed me,and harrassed me,
and then It stole my key!

So now i sit here all alone,
Locked out of my own room.
I have no food,i have no phone,
While i wait now for my doom.

ugggghhhhh!!15 min over,back to studying.

Im Dying Of A Very Bad Brain Ache.

curse you Core Four,
i cannot take it anymore!
at first you were a fucking bore,
but now you've left me bruised and sore.

You Bloody Chore!
To Hell with you-Curse You Core Four!

Twenty Today!

i wont say im Very Close to JLing,

but we do have our good times..

and hes such an absolute sweetie,

Happy Birthday,Joseph!

(if ur reading this,that is)

" So this is what makes life divine "

While I have this childish fancy to jump around in the magical world of Hidden Mickeys,I still remember talking on the phone for two hours with Edward because he didnt want to go to Disneyland again. -"Do You Know How Many Times Ive Been There?"
And when he got back,all he said was "The US was alright."
(its okay.its easy for me to hate him sometimes,as well)

Some day, my prince will come.

Until Then:


I still have my Court Jester!

-my boyfriend is a clown

Thanks for calling me before my papers,Edward.
and sorry i always pick up late-kancheong la.

I love You,
even though you're not all that charming.
or Indian.

And it doesnt matter if you eat Snickers at 2am in the morning,
when ur already chubby and plump and flabby and round and heavy ..*chortle*
I Still Love You,Fatso.

:p

So This is love..

One love
That has possessed me..

sha should stop with the disney songs