late night phone calls

my ielts report test form has vanished

idp said that they can only send copies to institutions.

but considering how im supposed to Bring It Over During Registration Day,maybe i could get Ielts to send one to mckl.so i can pop over one day to collect it.

i wonder if thats possible.

and WHY is it RM 10 just to get my spm cert translated ?

im going to visit boo this week.

and when i get back,we have to go to the zoo,indianprick.

also,the girls and i have to party.

and i should hang out with a couple of people more often..

hug them,kiss them,tell them that i love them,will miss them,will force them
to email/skype/msn/call me.

oh,and i need to apply for my uk visa.

and find out things.

and shop for things.

and let go of things.

and get ready for things.

plans,plans,plans.

two black and white birds are washing themselves in my garden.tweet.

the fucking slope test is so stupid.i mean,i really dont get it.

will there EVER be a time when it becomes ABSOLUTELY NECESSARY for us to STOP on a yellow line when going up a hill ? i mean wtf. so our tires are a little bit too in front,or too behind..

im sure its Such a Big Deal on the road.

i shouldnt dokidoki

i love the adventure i have.

finally met up with joseph ling! :)

u can see her bones la.

nerdy kai li is gng to imperial.shes going to look out for yummy london blokes for us,isnt she,rachel?

(although we really dont trust her taste)

im still so proud of you,luv

im just glad its over.

at the end of it all,i realized

that the A's dont make us happy.

its the Love.

the company,the support,the concern,the appreciation..

suddenly,the thought of getting full marks for my shakespeare papers didnt seem so big an achievement,

as being able to make my parents proud of me in some way.

it didnt matter if i was three marks away from an A,

because i knew i still did something right for them.

and then,

after awhile,

i didnt care about my grades,as much as i did about others.

it didnt matter if i got into bristol,i wanted my friends happy again.

i think it just got to me,

how our karma just made a little twist and turn and churn..

and then,

for a little while,

i wanted us to be together,

having the same fates and destinations

but it made me smile again,just knowing

that no matter what,

we'd always be there for each other

throughout.

im just glad that we still have each other despite it all.

i love my darlings more than the excitement of goodgrades & gng abroad for uni.

fuckit

rachel

i have had many rachel friends.

but rachel chua,has to be my favourite.

and im starting to miss her exceedingly.

(and the other two nerd friends-kai li and shonna of course. :D )

dear rachel,

we're getting our results in two days.

until then,we're stressing.

in fact,everyone seems to be screwing up now.if they're not getting emo at night,they're getting anxious in the morning.

Forget about H1N1.we've got the ALevel Results Anxiety-Flu.

so you're not alone in this.if anything,we're all feeling how you're feeling:

worried,stressed,depressed,terrified,scared,excited..

we tell our best friends to shut up about hope and to stop saying things like "you will do well,its okay" or "i know you will get in!"

because you're afraid of letting them down. you're afraid of letting everyone down..anyone down,especially ourselves.

i mean we've worked so hard! we slept through chemistry class,forgot to hand up our maths homework,wrote last minute englishlit essays and gossiped during biology lab..

we've obviously done the best we could..right?

and its not only results that we're terrified about,

i mean,for myself,september might be days and days away,but im actually worried about uni life.

it starts with the 13 hour plane ride alone to a country 8 thousand miles away,and im really not sure how things will go once i touch down.

plus,im very clueless about how the next 9 months id be spending there, would be like.

i mean,its terrifying. the snobby and bitchy and bimbotic nerdslut goes to university on her own.

would the nerds accept her? or the sluts ? or nobody at all..

its okay,rach.

im going to stock up the chocolates.This Thursday,i'll be there with you.i'll cry with you and smile with you and scream with you.

and wherever it is you go to after this,i'll still make sure you get to hear my rambles about hot guys in wet white shirts,and how yummy sambal is with anything.

in the end,everything is going to be alright.

just have a little bit more of faith.

imported european manila board

guys shouldnt slouch la. HAHAHA

thats calvin..Slouching.

but i love calvin la.

even though hes indian and hairy and all that .

:D

slept over at mei's a couple of days ago.

grrr.

i cant wait until august ends.so much of crap to deal with.

like results and visa and trips and buying stuff for the uk and results and ohgosh,i wont be in kl for graduation night.

i have to see all my collegefriends before i leave though.

not that i had MANY collegefriends (mcklians couldnt take tht Apparent bitchy-snobby impression i have and i couldnt take their not taking it)..but still,the few ones i had were fucking awesome.

oh btw,boo..if ur reading this:im getting my results on kong kong's bday.ma was saying how "if he were still alive,and you did not get ur grades,he would be so upset".dam pressure right.

wake me up when september begins.

i have to plan a theleven farewell.

and i have to get my driving license.i hate practical exams,when you cant really control the situation.

i mean,i could have done the slope thing about a dozen times,bt what if it starts to storm on that day?

or what if im so nervous,the car breaks down?

or what if..the car just breaks down because it doesnt like me?

like piano exams!

its NOT MY FAULT the room is so bloody cold and the piano key so bloody tough.

or,like chemistry practical exams!

one drop just Has to Make SUCH a difference.

and how sure am i that the apparatus works well ? or that the bunsen burner has not been contaminated with another salt ?

i hate exams.and i hate results.

i rather go to Aquaria or UnderWater World or something.

or attempt singing La Mer on stage.

seriously.

bored

today,i had a terrible grade8 piano exam and ive been having fuckass period pains the whole day so im miserable with cravings.

i crave for sugar coated biscuits,

and yummy yummy affogato.

my baby deli is going to be a DOCTOR.

i watched five minutes of ER today and a tiny bit of me wished i were not afraid of blood and needles and huge responsibilities concerning people's lives.doctors are Awesome.

and mei got her A's as well.

my results are out next week.

shyte

amani just said that cats are better than dogs,and im trying to find an english word for 'merajuk'.

i hate infidelity.its murder

Que reste-t-il de nos amours?

i dont see the big deal about having a lot of money to get big houses and big boats and big boobs and whatever it is those rich asses want more of.

in fact,i Abhor big houses because honestly,great spaces feel cold and unwelcoming.

but thats the thing about the rich,

they want So Much.

depraved rich husbands want More sex.

illiterate rich women want More shoes.

spoiled rich children want More allowance.

but before you start to agree with me,because im sure we're all annoyed at(or jealous of) their indulgences as well..

you know,its not only the rich.

Every Day, we ourselves accumulate so much of desire that it spills some sort of negative effect into our environment.

Global Warming isnt killing us.

Its hate.

its that bloody dissatisfaction in us,thats digging our souls out.nothing is ever good enough for us.

but Today(and hopefully tomorrow too)

I'm Thankful.

Im In Love.Im Happy.Im Smiling.

evn without a big house,

or a big boat

(but im getting my period la,so i cant help the bigger boobs part)

i dont want anything,

because i can find happiness

right at my doorstep.

you're a million miles away

but it doesnt matter,

i still sayang you so much

eddie.rammie.terry.berry.fairy.sorry?

ching and i slept over at serene's on monday night

then we went off to penang in the morning.

THIS IS SERENE'S SEXY FACE.

ching and ram

OCTOBER GIRLS

..or trio,whichever.

it was a long long walk to gurney plaza from our hotel.

by the time we got back,we were like this:

ching and ram left us so serene and i went around by ourselves

O CHIEN

this is what we did when waiting for our best friend and her boyfriend

bored like hell.

the girl next to ching is may. she took us around penang.penangites are so hospitable.

the traditional way

i love the blue mansion too.

its AWESOME

chinese people are so smart

and i'll never laugh at my mom for believing in feng shui again

gorgeous

suffolk house where mr.francis light resided before

this is the kek lok si temple

the temple of supreme bliss

this is serene pretending to be dead.

this is serene and i pretending to be dead,and ching is emo about our deaths

"this is a good shot.it has all of us in it" - serene

:) i love my best friends

laugh ur head off on fb

oh.and serene and i missed the bus! :D