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HOME!

2009-12-16T08:21:00.002+08:00

its 8.30 am here.my computer still says its 12.30am.im nt going to change it.

i just woke up.

im Home.im In My Room-the one with the light orange walls,not the dingy white one with bad stains.

my parents didnt touch a single thing in my room.i have all my books and toys with me again!post its from three months ago are still stuck on my white board-pay accommodation and ResNet fees!Get medical check up! ..among other things.

this is quite nostalgic.

its so bloody surreal.

oh,it feels like a dream.one of those big dreams that when you wake up,you roll across the bed and sit right up and then go omg,it was just a dream.

those ones.

the ones that make you feel like..thank god it was just a dream and you never want to leave home again.

bt saying that,i dont think ive ever felt true euphoria before.suddenly theres a strong gush of appreciation.i know im more mature now (Shut Up,i Also Know You're Sniggering) and life is slighty different now.

oh its so good to be HOME.

i can talk like how i like lor.no need to say proper-proper english liao.can just be broken wan la-im in Malaysia what. can pronounce my T's now also-wahliao,my Asian accent is back.

14 days.going to make the best out of it.

bye bye F0

2009-12-14T21:30:00.002+08:00

im leaving England today.

currently all alone in my flat.hello?hello? nobody is here anymore. cant hear mike's trombone.cant hear anwen's infamous laugh. cant hear dan's sexual urges.cant hear nat's london accent.cant hear gem's voice.cant hear kayleigh's footsteps. cant hear mat's roar.

i keep expecting someone to just knock on my door.or to rush into the communal area from the kitchen,screaming some frantic noises.

no more.all gone back home.only me.little asian girl-baby lish-me.

F0 has been like a big,warm family to me.we're family.we eat together,drink together,laugh together,talk together,scream at each other,have fun with each other..say "nighty night!",and then,"pyjama pyjama!".

tick tock.im waiting for the time to pass so that i can call a cab and head off to the bus station.

im going home.back home!

im going to see my real family.my mommy and daddy and jen.tick tock,tick tock.its been three months-the longest ive ever been away from home.i love home very much.i love the familiar marble floor and the scratched parquet tiles-i love the thick smell of homecooked food-i love the fact that the staircase is too small that we (literally)bump into each other most of the time.

i am going to go home,and unpack and bring out the sweets and the chocolates and the magazines.i am going to give my sister a big,big hug and tell her that ive missed her so much..even though we never really talked back home,or spent a lot of time together at all.i am going to sleep on my bed-that four poster bed that wasnt mine before.i am going to text all my friends.pranav is going to call me again and we will talk for hours again about random things again.oh slow internet connection again,and very spicy food again.

Again again again! life is like a circle.

im going to be home :)

tick tock tick tock-i cant wait .

twas a happy xmas

2009-12-13T02:53:00.013+08:00

we shopped at the BigBig Tesco's the night before :)

and then had curry together afterwards.

matt's brandy butter

we named our chicken, Nat :D

hide coins in the pudding.pour brandy onto the pudding.light pudding on fire!

8311:my soppy post

2009-12-11T08:07:00.007+08:00

we're too young for relationships.

we're too stupid for love.

hell yeah,i know we're gng to trip over,tumble,fumble and fall flat on our faces.

and i realize how painful its going to be.

but i also know we're holding hands,7000 miles away from each other,

to my total opposite,

happy fourth year,

its been..worth it all. :)

i love you

10am

2009-12-10T06:24:00.015+08:00

i wouldnt normally accept calls from people only next door-

bt i sayang my flatmates :D

even though they get angry and break windows

this evening we had secret santa! + lots of snacks and goodies

gem made that for nat.legend.

then eddie came for a (very) little while..

my boyfriend is a dodo head.

he annoys me,that boy.he does.

and i know it doesnt make sense,i know it might seem like the silliest idea in the world..

Four Years Together..apart.

but edward does make me the Happiest girl and im very glad We're Us.

going back

2009-12-08T21:51:00.019+08:00

this is nathaniel.

nat walked me to the Student's Union despite being half-crippled,

and then waited with me until the bus came.

gem painted my nails and i borrowed dan's student card

i have the loveliest flatmates :)

the Xmas Law Ball could have been better.but it was Alright.

oh oh i finally met another Edward -

and this time,hes Actually English

Asian boys with English names are just a big disgrace to their identity.

no offence,but i fell in love with Brian Friel's 'Translations',so you really you cant blame me.

i have the happiest days here,

the friendliest flatmates,

the yummiest chocolates,

the cleanest streets,

but i really miss home.

owwhh,i cant wait to be back.

i procrastinate a lot

2009-12-07T06:21:00.006+08:00

cool candlelight Christmas carol concert at Christ Church,Clifton

My first carol concert!

dreidel from Nat,the Jewish flatmate.

grr.my workload actually Annoys me.

kiasu

2009-12-06T04:20:00.008+08:00

went shopping with mel again today despite the fact that i still have so much of work to do,thats its becoming quite Unfair.

but ive decided that if i do reasonably well for my first year,im going to take an English Literature Module for that one optional unit i have.you know,to treat myself.this is very good motivation.

anyway,last night's panto soc's xmas production (Treasure Island) was Absolutely Wicked. better than any klpac production i have ever seen.

pia dragged joanne and i ALL THE WAY to the Habourside

godknowswhy

after which,we had to WALK HER HOME IN THE RAIN

bt what can i say,we're Such Good Friends

pia's flat is Too Neat.theres seriously something wrong with it. they dont share spoons or forks or pans or anything much. theres no cans of beer,no bottles of vodka..no dirty tea towel lying on the floor..everything is organized,tidy,clean...

suits Pia very well though but i personally enjoy a bit of mess.

when theres a mess,then theres cleaning up.and that feeling after cleaning up a big mess with ur flatmates is Wow.and when theres a lot to clean up,it takes up a lot of time-PERFECT excuse to procrastinate on that bloody tort essay.

HAVENT HEARD FROM THIS BOY SINCE HE TOUCHED DOWN IN LONDON.

i dont understand boys.you tell them "have a good time but be contactable and keep me updated,alright?" but they somehow understand that to be "switch off your phone.dont call me.dont text me.make me worry,alright?"

Seriously.boys are stupid.

bt saying that,i really really hope he comes to bristol .finally someone to show around-

"this is the Clifton Suspension Bridge people tend to take pictures of even though it really is just another bride"

"this is Wills Memorial.this is where i study.I study at Wills memorial.Wills memorial is the sex.my tutorial room ..which is in Wills memorial has a fireplace. I love Wills memorial-i study there"

whats up doc

2009-12-04T08:32:00.008+08:00

missed out on the goldney xmas ball ;(

baked bread and butter pudding for my flatmates :)

just one of those random nights..

it was my first attempt though.probably why mike asked ,

"Is this like a Malaysian version?"

:D HAHAHA good times good times

but awwwhhh,as much as i love it here.cant wait till CHRISTMAS!!

today,i saw a Red VW Beetle while walking back home

and i swear,that made me So Homesick.

i had this image of myself going in and sitting beside my mom saying, "Lets Go Home"

hungry

2009-12-03T08:16:00.006+08:00

im still such an Elizabeth Bennet.i dont know if thats a good thing or not.

when im not staring at my casebook..

im cutting out paper snowflakes

because no matter where you are, life can get Boring.

secret santa

2009-11-29T05:11:00.018+08:00

Law Parenting Social .

absolutely Trolleyed.

definitely Not Proud of myself.

Bad Hangover,

bt to be fair,it was a good night.

i think it was jack's (2nd yr lawyer)place we went to first.

after which was Roo Bar,then The Ranch and then Bunker.

thats Emma,my "sister".we're in the same law&state seminar.

our family shot-Tom,Emma,LiSha,Izzy

i Swear i wasnt smashed.its just a very bad picture.

PIAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA !!!! :D

(jack gave me his shirt to wear on the way to the club)

oh and SOON IT WILL BE CHRISTMAS.it feel so Good here-the thought of xmas (even toh i know mine will be spent in hot,humid kl) is much more ..Real because of the Cold and the enthusiastic Christmas Decorations everywhere.

finally bought myself a winter coat.

took melissa and i around 4 hours or more to search for the perfect coat .

both ended up buying the first coat we saw.

ive tons of essays to complete.bahhhhhhhhhh.

i miss F4 :( My college girlfriends.

happy birthday edward!

2009-11-28T06:17:00.003+08:00

You're 19 !

..and im having a rough hangover.

oh,we're growing up.from childish texts to big-ass responsibilities.

but through it all-the frustrations,the joys,the agony,the stress..

dont stop chasing your dreams,love.they wont run too far from you.

will always be there for u

because i love you very much.

rambles

2009-11-25T22:40:00.006+08:00

you cant have love,without hate.

which makes love a funny thing,but not funny enough to really make you laugh.

mothers,for instance,can love their sons So Much,that they end up Hating the girlfriends.

Hating the one thing(besides playstation and football)that makes their sons feel like Wow.

usually its not because the girlfriend is a bad person who plans to take over the world,

but its usually because of Love.

and that makes it a Funny thing,doesnt it?

why would you Hate something your son Loves?

wouldnt you Love the fact that he..Loves?

oh,Love.You're so Difficult.

hes all grown up now and she really cannot accept that.

after that first step he took,he just kept walking further and further away from her.

there was a time when he would grab her hand in a crowded room of strangers-afraid,lost and scared;he always knew there was mommy.

but now,hes usually across the room,rolling his eyes at her.

shes getting old.shes losing it.losing her charm,losing her control,losing what meant to her the most.

it must be frighftul. one day hes teasing all the girls in class,the next day hes flirting around with one particular Girl.

and then four years later,its still this particular Girl.

theres going to be a time when he would grab her hand in a crowded room of strangers-afraid,lost and scared;he knows the Girl will always be there

now,hes usually across the room,skyping with her

this Girl is only getting younger.she has it all.she has the charm,she has control,she has what means the most to her.

so she shouts at her son.she screams at him for being on the phone for too long with the girl.she tells him again and again,to stop it,to end it.she clenches her fist,cursing at the girl because shes done everything wrong- "you're talking to the person i dont like" she says loudly when hes on the phone,hoping hed do something about it,do something for her,instead of for the Girl.

shes not the Girl she wants for him.shes not the Girl.she Wont be the Girl..

..that takes him away from her

but again ,when theres Hate,

theres also Love.

"You can take the train to Bristol to see her"

she cant have him with her all the time anymore,cant have him agree with her anymore,cant make him do what she wants him to do anymore..but at least she can make him happy.

ITS BEEN 8 WEEKS.

2009-11-23T08:39:00.006+08:00

had trifle for the first time- anwen's flat dinner; dessert

and the other day,i had some black pudding

bit by bit,i swear my flat mates are helping me evolve into becoming more English than i really should.

but Naahhh,nothing beats pisang goreng (goreng pisang?) or nasi lemak or roti canai or nescafe ais or char kuih teow or chicken rice ..

Negaraku.

ahhh,that phrase never felt so good before.

three more weeks.

balik kampung..oh oh oh balik kampung :)

how's kl ?

2009-11-21T22:15:00.014+08:00

last Night,we went out in our sunnies to buy ingredients for our Sainsbury's Recipe at Tesco's.

chicken stuffed with brie cheese and cranberry sauce,wrapped with courgettes

yummmy ;D

and then of course,dessert from Tesco's Finest.

then a random group of us went to the Corrie Tap.

Gemma evolved into really lightweight -drunk after 2pints.

Haha! but it was a good night.

good times,good times.

but good times have to end :

ive been flipping through the pages of my text book,going through all my notes and trying (very,very hard) to remember what was taught during my Law&State seminar,but its been nearly 2 hours now (or more-probably more) and i still cant get started on my essay.

i cant answer the question.ive gone blank.ive started to worry- i cant tell my tutor that i need more time nor can i say "i forgot to bring my homework la,miss.sorry sorry,can bring tomorrow or not ah?"

ive had two cups of coffee,a cuppa tea,one magical mug of hot chocolate,a cold shower,a cat nap-but im still Restless and Sleepy and Tired.

I Hate Public Law.

its like Chemistry (dull,complex,not relevant to real life)

only this time if i fail..it would affect my other grades.

Its so dumb,really.ive got to touch on the European Union.IM ASIAN FOR GOD'S SAKE.grumble

the lady doth protest too much,methinks.

toffee nut latte -mmm!

2009-11-19T05:08:00.009+08:00

back in wms,we had these trees

we called them "the trees with seasons"

because the green leaves would change into a lovely orange-yellow colour,and then into a dark red-brown colour.

i dont recall the leaves falling down though.i dont remember having trees without any leaves.

its quite depressing.life needs more colour.

pia and i had some perry today

regent st.

princess victoria st-where i do my grocery shopping,and where i spend a good time searching for a good book at Oxfam.

i just found out that one of the songs on my blog,is the song thats played during the credits of 500 Days Of Summer.

ben&jerrys-vodka coke

2009-11-16T02:00:00.012+08:00

mat's parents brought us Xmas Gifts !

yayyyyyyyyy!

VICTORIA ROOMS-Music Department

Art Gallery

THERE WAS SUN TODAY!!!!!!!!

do you remember,when we were pushed around by the prefects to line up at the basketball court three times a day?-morning assembly,after break time,after lunch time.

do you remember how we would Whine and Grumble and Swear and Scream about how we Hated the Bloody Sun. OHMYGOD ITS SO HOT !

we worried about sweat stains,complained about migraines.

when the rain came,we rejoiced.we ran straight into the court-chased each other,giggled,smiled.the cool wind blowing against our faces after a tiresome day in class.

do you remember how we loved that?

well,Mr.Sun is my best friend now.when i wake up and see a little ray of sunshine outside my balcony,i rush into the kitchen for a better view.oh, the joy of warmth and brightness!theres Sun! theres Sun !

and i could very well do without Mr.Rain..without having to worry about getting my books wet or whether ive packed my brolly . i abhor the little drops of water that Keep falling from the grey,gloomy sky .

its funny isnt it,how things change

One day,you hate something.

the next day,you love it.

you dont really miss something until you leave it-its true.

pancakes and a play

2009-11-14T22:37:00.004+08:00

i have nat's FRIENDS box sets for the weekend

just to make up for the lack of Friends -

nat,anwen and mike have gone for : http://www.bristol.ac.uk/news/2009/6667.html

gemma and mat has gone back home

and the weather is SO GLOOMY.

currently addicted to :http://www.innocentdrinks.co.uk/things_we_make/smoothies/carton_straw_ban/

and well,tea, of course.

"how do people have christmas during the summer ?? when all the malls are playing "Let it Snow,Let it Snow,Let it Snoww" ..and with all those christmas cards with a snowy background and little robins and ice skaters.its a bit depressing isnt it,not having Christmas during the winter!"

presentation and interview.ugh

2009-11-11T00:47:00.008+08:00

nat came back from NY,and bought some of us Socks because they're cool.

this is for SERENE CHAN SZE HUA.

"The one thing im actually looking forward to are the Starbucks Christmas Cups"

i must stop my chocolate addiction.i must stop my chocolate addiction.i must stop my chocolate addiction.i must stop my chocolate addiction.i must stop my chocolate addiction.i must stop my chocolate addiction.i must stop my chocolate addiction.i must stop my chocolate addiction.i must stop my chocolate addiction.i must stop my chocolate addiction.i must stop my chocolate addiction.i must stop my chocolate addiction.

I (really,really)MISS STUDYING LITERATURE

law can be soo tiresome :

when we could just say "its an orange",

those obsessive Judges Must go "its a round, thick skinned juicy edible fruit that is a reddish-yellow color when ripe,with little dots on the skin that is grown in certain countries that anyone of any age can consume within any amount of time." or something.

i mean REALLY,geezz.

mug

2009-11-09T06:40:00.014+08:00

first thing i see every morning when i get out of my room.

my flat mate is a poser.

although just a few nights ago,i stuck some post its on his door because i found my keys on his bed.

wetherspoons.lovely ambiance,not so lovely burgers.

cheap cocktails for kiamsiap students

ASIANS! :)

Wills memorial at night

what cures a cold,rainy night-warm chips.

oh yeah,chris got smashed.

went shopping on a rainy day w melissa and pia at cabot circus.

yayyyyyyyyyyyyyy-i survived flat dinner!

ie cooking dinner (rogan josh,garlic rice,indian salad) for the 8 of us in our flat..All By Myself (fine,dan chopped two onions,and mat chopped some garlic)

"i have to say this LiSha,and i actually mean it as a compliment:you cook like an Asian"

"yeah,and ,well to be Fair,Li Sha is more English than Asian isnt she?"

*applause*

"thank you Li Sha.that was good Asian..Malaysian Chinese food."

"it was INDIAN food,"

AND nat came back from NY with a whole bag of sweets.

our flat shared some bertie botts' every flavour beans ( i had vomit,grass,dirt,pepper,buttered popcorn and cherry) and some chocolate and some toxic waste (sour stuff) and some marshmallow fluff and some snake-candy and some sugarcoatedwatermelonshaped-candy and some Pez..

so yeah,now my tongue hurts and im having tons and tons of hot water to wash away the sugarness.

oh oh,ANNDD ive finished my property tutorial essay ! :)

AND im quite prepared for my law&state presentation already.

so now i only have to prepare for my next 4 tutorials this week ..which isnt Too Bad.

so another YAY for yet another Eventful Weekend!

just another post.

2009-11-04T01:14:00.008+08:00

contract tutorial was cancelled today,and i have no classes tmrw.its a very,very long weekend.the workload is dreadful.what do we mean by monist and dualist systems? i have no idea- i know the English follow the latter and the Germans,the former. who is We anyway ,and why must We go about defining systems ? We is causing Me a headache.

i need coffee with no milk.how Can you drink Instant Coffee with no milk?! i want to say its called Nescafe O back home and that a bout a million other people drink it too,every single day at the Mamak.but i know it wouldnt make sense and my "its because im Asian" excuse has gone bad.

like the potatoes in the cupboard that smelt like cat poo. (whoops)

in the kitchen,kayleigh screams my name over and over again - i always hear your name being called out the most in this flat- lishaaa,lishaaa,lishaaa.mat is back from lectures and gem is taking a nap and mike is in his room and nat is in New York and both anwen and dan are probably still at lectures.Your White Friends! they call themselves. My angmoh friends. my orang putih flat mates.

my coffee is getting cold,and im getting sick of staying in this room with my books.I love Ali Smith,i bought D H Lawrence at Oxfam this afternoon. Second Hand Books are like stories within stories.shelves and shelves of old books and older books and some quite new books that people just didnt want to read anymore. i seriously miss studying literature and writing essays about characters-like my best friends,people i knew about so much more than i know about Ai Ching or MiSha or Ben.or Edward,even .

ive been sent away to Study,but Public Law is a pain : the Crwon's preroagtive in foregin affiars deos not incldue pweor to canhge hte Law. Deep Sigh.in my room,theres A big tub of Rocky Road and a tumbler of warm water.munch,munch as i read about Amber and Astrid instead.

its 5 in the evening,and i still cant answer the question : in the domestic British context is international human rights law different from other forms of international law?domestic British (like tea and scones and cider?)-why am i learning the British Constitution? The British dont know the British Constitution.Im Chinese!(Malaysian?)

so i walk.its dark outside but im going for a walk . the streets are quiet. two women and their children. a girl in pink pushes a little pink toy pram. teenage boys light cigarettes and then ask each other about last night. I walk alone

and enjoy the lights of the shops.I smell Pizza.i had a slice today,Mike offered me some of his lunch. Pia would like that. oh i spend so many days with Pia.who would have thought? I believe in karma. I know its getting darker because the skies arent purple anymore,but dark blue.very dark blue.It gets windy and i go inside a warm WHSmith.i look outside, i love it.i love the cold,and i love how the weather just changes. the leaves from the trees on the way to Tescos have suddenly gone missing. fallen. Its Fall ,after all. its so different from back home. its so special.

Theres no noise,just cars swooshing past so quickly..and so many of them,its difficult for me to get back. or maybe i just dont want to,so i stand there and wait. a squirrel actually runs past me. its so different from back home.its so special.

what exactly is International Law ?

im an International student,and im studying Law.

knock knock.its Dan.he calls me his Little Asian Friend."Hi ".he hugs me. "how was your day?mine was pretty shit."

i laugh.

hello Bristol.

consideration

2009-11-03T01:18:00.023+08:00

because i promised Mei that ill upload pics of the posters she gave me :) :

Carm,i didnt wear the halloween costume u gave me in the end.

no idea what to do with the cloth.so i just hung it up .haha

the witch's hat is what gemma found on the floor during halloween.she also found two woolen scarves,and a bracelet.

on the way to clifton village from Goldney

Regent Street,Clifton :

tesco express,where i used to do most of my groceries.

Yay,goldney hall

i love bristol la.

matt: "would you support China or Malaysia in football?"

dan :"shed support England!"

and the sad thing is,he actually was right.

but i just couldnt admit it in front of them

i should read Translations again and sulk about the lost of identity.

8 cases to read before tmrw.grrrrrrrrrrr

on a brighter note,i bought a second hand national geo from Oxfam for only 40p !

i love how people(old,young,ugly or beautiful) here still love the Beatles.

I once hated sundays.

2009-11-02T03:10:00.005+08:00

We just had another flat dinner :)

no pictures this time.It was Mike's turn and we had lasagna,salad,some garlic bread and wine..

while watching Football.

i know.after 9 months,i might turn out being more English than before.

HAHA.

but its so good learning about English Football , English Tea,English Brown Sauce and English school lunches before Jamie Oliver.

its my turn next week and i have absolutely no idea what to prepare for my angmoh friends.i'll worry about that later-time for more contract law .

bathrobe

2009-10-31T08:16:00.016+08:00

ok first of all ,thats Daryl.the Asian in all of my classes.Although Singaporean and Kiasu(haha!),hes really nice.

he knows too much about whats gng on in class..which is a huge advantage when you've had accidentally started daydreaming about what to cook for dinner during a tutorial.

today,i had a totally random night out with Joanne,Melissa and Wei Khai..

or as my flat mates would know them as one of 'lisha's asian friends whom she rather hang out with than us'

(Which isnt true btw)

the coronation tap ! *click the link*

yummiest cider.

oh before we could go in,we had to show id.

so i showed the guy my ISIC(without fear because im ALREADY 18 years old!),but he was like "do u have any other sort of ID? like a student card?"

so i showed him my student card,bt i dont get why he preferred that because my ISIC shows my birthdate and ugly face but my student card only shows my ugly face.

melissa and i at clifton suspension bridge.

because it was dark,we couldnt really see much..

bt still a gorgeous night view.

(made me miss being at taman melawati w F4 though!)

thats wei khai - crazy nice. we bumped into him on the way so we just ajaked him to come along. thank god too. its always sweet to have a guy .esp a guy with a bicycle.

joanne :"There! I ASIANISED the shot for you!"

we crossed the bridge and hanged out in wei khai's extremely huge room for a bit.

tmrw morning,im studying contract law :D I LOVE CONTRACT LAW

..very nearly as much as i love literature.

Seriously.

im a huge nutella fan.and because i have no mommy to stop me,i literally snack on Nutella..and finish 200g in a few hours. you know,first time i had nutella was in England years and years ago.i might just Die of Nutella-ness here. yummmmmmmmyy need to buy some more.

my way to uni !

2009-10-30T03:48:00.005+08:00

thats Manor Hall,

which is next to CHH

which is next to Goldney Hall.

All three on the (stupid) Lower Clifton HILL.

on the left,although u cant see it,is the Queen Elizabeth's Hospital ,school for boys.

yay,will's memorial !a lot of crossing of roads to get theres so couldnt take a shot.